My songs

Recently I found myself in love with composing songs... and I just realise Its not easy at all... I accept my friends' comments... So I keep on changing the rhythm n lyrics... But I dunno If its better now... Honestly... Its kinda hard for me to accept comments... When I got the bad comments... I will be sad for sure(Well many times)... The first song I compose.. Not many of them(my friends) seem to be loving it.. :( Cept Kwan... ^^ She like the lyrics.. Thanks ^^ and I feel like dont want to change the first song(Dui Bu Qi) anymore... I feel like Its already lost the very first rhythm I compose last time... T.T

Last night.. I slept at 5am... Why? Because song idea suddenly come to me... I made another new song without midi... "Qi Ji" Oh god! I am so happy about the new one... The first person I sent it to.. He said he love it.. But.. His words hurt me a lot.. He said that I should let others to sing the song I compose... I know where is my singing problem... Voice viberation(dunno if I spell it wrong)... I cant control it well... That is why I wanna learn singing.. But today when I ask my mom to bring me look for a teacher... U guys guess what the fucking words she said? "Insane.. Dont waste the money.." How selfish she is! She said if I am "Lucky" to find a teacher... Then I have to drive there and she is not fetching me(I almost bang people's car last time.. now I dont really dare to drive)

Till the end.. I still feel like I wanna sing back the songs I made.. I wasted my bed time to make those.. I love singing that is why I compose.. So.. My songs.. I will sing them myself... and.. I HATE U MOM!

Done Performance~ Valentine's Day Coming Soon <3

YAY!!! BRAVO!!!! ^^ Finally the performance days are end now ^^ >.< I miss my hair styles now T.T Everything is good today... Just my hair style today look like "Chun Li" XD or Sailormoon~ T.T I think Its weird for me... But they said still OK.. =.=" I did smile for the show today... Hahahahah... Exspecially the LAST show~ Crowded again~ Today my dress not that tight like yesterday already.. Mom sew it for me ^^ (But keep on saying I so "Ma Fan" =.=") Yea.. I think maybe because of my good friend SC~ So that girl start to talk "a bit" with me.. Today she help me to "clip" my hair(cause its messy already XD) Teaching me a bit on some spins.. Should say Thanks then.. LoL... But one of my good friend(also SC's good friend) still dont really like her...

Sunway gave me 5 FREE tickets for skating as my reward... XD 5 Tickets also got my name on it... "Thank You bla bla bla for the performance "1 Night in Shanghai"" Hahahaha... Is Happy ^^ At least I think I pay RM35 is worth it~ 5 Tickets~ <3 <3

Today I reach home about 5pm.. VERY TIRED.. but still so happy ^^ So I slept from 6pm until 11pm~ Still a bit tired now... Gonna sleep so soon I think.. After some movies n anime..

Oh yea... Just now went dinner with my BB... He asked what I want for the valentine's day... I just realise its coming SOON.. =.=" Blur blur me.. I told him no need to buy or just save money for my skating lessons(lol yea.. he sponsor me now).. Maybe just buy 2 ribbons... one tie on me and one tie on him.. XD then we exchange present... Hahahahaha.... Lets see... T.T The performance bring me happy but still... It made my hair become not as straight as last time already T.T MY HAIR!!! T.T So sad about It T.T

Performance Days

I cant feel my leg... XD Too tired... Since Tuesday until now... Today is the second performance day.. Everything is fine( I think ).. Kwan n Phuah come to see the show yesterday(Friday Night) and Jun Loong came today ^^.... Thanks again to them for coming~ But here I gotta say sorry to Jun Loong cause I cant really chat much with him(show time start).. Didnt even say bye when I saw him going back... :( Sorry Jun Loong~

Today finally that high level girl talk to me.. Asking my name.. She seem much better than last time.. At least the way she looking at you wont let u feel she is looking down on u anymore... Is good ^^

My "chiong sam" really DAMN BIG for me... But today the girl(yea that one)'s mom help me to sew a bit... so Its TIGHT now.. =.= too tight~ XD Look really scary~ What made me so happy today is... MY HAIR STYLE!!! I am loving it.. XD

Tomorrow there will be the last performance already~ So Good Luck to myself~

Pennyless( I Need To Get A Job! )

*sigh* I am currenly looking for a part time job... I need to get some money to pay my skating lessons fees... T.T Today I am kinda happy cause I learned 1 hour skating... Feeling good even Its tired... Damn!! Made me want to take 1 hour lesson next time... But I need lots of money for it... T.T RM520 per month If I want to take 1 hour per lesson... >.< GOD! I am JOBLESS now... How to pay RM520??? T.T

Somemore my dad getting silly nowaday... His temper getting bad... and This is what he will say when he is in bad mood... "Dont ask me for money anymore" "One day I am gonna leave this house(my house,my family) with my money" =.= So... I need to stand by now.. If one day he really STOP supporting me in money(for piano lesson) *sigh* Guys~ Any job for me??? T.T *poor me*

I might try to ask for the job at "pasar pagi"(market there)... Those work start at 6am- 1pm or something like that~ Its good for me I think XD ^^