Waiting

Finally I had passed the interview... That was really quick... I interview at 2:30 and I got my reply at 3:30... Hehe... I thought I will be nervous for it but end up I dont feel any nervous on the conversation... Just a bit shock cause the whole interview was in english... LoL.. You can imaging how it goes with my "broken english" and "stuck words"... "Errr..." "Errmmm"

I told my hun about what we talk in it... and My bb said that I did a great job... At least I did answer those questions... Was asking me about what you will explain about the connection problem? Well... Its a really good question.. Dont have a correct answer actually... Just have to try ur best and explain till the customer feel better... I did stuck for a moment but at the end I still get to answer him a bit... Hopefully I am not as bad as I think :(

Sometime, Something, you better not to know so you wont feel bad/anything about knowing it... This is very true... A new friend told me that... Cause I am asking him on how much he get for salary... LoL and now I realise its kinda personal... I knew some new friend recently... and learn something from some of them... Btw... That "something" that I shouldnt know is... T.T my comment from the guy who interview me was just "Ok La"... T.T not "Not Bad"... Sigh~ a bit disappointed... But I am ok right now..

Bubu,know him thru the new game that I am playing now... First sight about him was not very good(I mean in game)... cause he is full with those %$#@# words(not full with but quite often)...Then slowly I get to know him better... He was a nice person... nice friend to me... But just one thing that I dont really like is... After reading my blogs... He start to comment me on my life... >< honestly I just dont really like people that is trying to open up my heart and see me thru... Its like being naked in front of people... T.T sorry bubu i really dont mean to be bad to u... I know you really want to help me... Sigh~ and now bubu just left his acc for me and never say anything T.T... Dont wry bubu.. I wont touch a thing... Waiting for u to come back...

Mr C, a very "cute" lil bro... I knew he thru my hun... I dunno how to describe him... A very "funny" person... Sometime he will be very serious and sometime he will be very "NOT" serious... LoL! Thats how I describe him... Oh ya.. Currently he is looking for a girl friend... Anyone interest? We can make some appointment here... ROFL! I wonder if he know about this will kill me or not T.T... btw... His words sometime really wake me up... "Sometime you really dont have to tell them "ALL" and dont be so "Serious" about it"... Just like today... He asked me "Why so serious?"... He is right... Why so serious? Its just a game... Oh ya... with lots of botters' game... XD

Mr G, a new friend that I knew in game but still thru my hun... He was the one who told me about dont ask dont know and wont feel... Two thumb up for him... Not very close with him but can feel that he is a not bad person... hehe... Nice to meet ya btw although u wont read this...

and MY VERY FIRST FAN---- Dreamer! Yo man! Finally meet you!!! How many years we been knowing each other? XD and Thanks Thanks Thanks!!! For introduce me and my hun for the job... You are our life saver!!! *muackkk* :p Oh ya... We still owe u half burger... When you free to go eat with us ah? Hahaha... Call me wo... Oh ya... Where is my Cup ah?

Wow... Today I just write so much... and one more thing... BB I love you!!! Sorry for the last few week... I am ok now... Get rid of the stupid things already.... :p Your still my LOVEST darling... *muackkkk*

What Should I Do?

Everyday seem has become days living in the hell for me... I do nothing beside sleep , eat , poo poo , bath , and "game"... I am not addicted to it actually... Just feel like I got nothing better to do... Still waiting for the job's reply... But I keep thinking If I could handle the job...

I failed many times and made people feel disappointed about me... Sigh~ I wonder who know that I really dont mean it... They all say that I have "NO" responsibility and take working as "game" (play play only)... Sigh~ I really dont! I paid all my heart into it... I worked hard... I dont even dare to "relax"... I just cant stand the communication... People are hard to guess... Who really treat u with heart and who dont... I am really weak on it... I did try to hold it hard inside..
Until the day I went collapse and cry out loud... I scared my mom and others... I feel like myself is dying during that period...

I feel scare now... I have a serious problem on how to "let go" all the stuff... I take things too serious on mind... I dunno If I can handle this job this time... Should I try? Will I hurt someone again? T.T I really dont want to be a bad one again... I feel tired for my life... Really really tired...

Nice "Block"

Thanks for blocking... Hahaha... Really thanks...
So now I can tell myself... Stop thinking about everything now...
No more... Really no more... Thanks for blocking still...

Days cant reverse I always know... Things already happen mean
already happen... Nothing can change it... Still... Thanks a lot...
Would be a good memory for me...

Thanks for blocking... I can end up everything now...
*Story close*

Headache, I am So Headache

"Wasted" 11 days on a game that made me so crazy about it...
Get know with some people inside... Well... My blog is for me to write
whatever I want... Just want to say... Dont try to change me and
tell me what to do cause I really hate it... Look inside my heart? Never!

Recently I am so freaking emo and headache about everything...
I feel sick on him... very very... Starting to think If I should back to be alone...
Everyone tell me to work... Guys... You really think that I dont want to work?
Hahahaha... I got nothing to say... I dont have to explain to everyone.. Really...
At least I know what I doing and what I want...

One thing that I am pretty sure now is... I really need money! I am totally broke!
Its sad when you see your thing already spoilt but you dont have the money
to get a new one... and He dont have as well... Hahahaha... What a life?
Even I wanna start work... He dont seem like care about helping me apply for the job...
A letter that I asked him to type long time ago... Until now... He still havent done it for me...
Well well well... You dont want to feed me.. but also you dont help me to get a job...
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT???????!!!!!!!!!

Well... Maybe you will think... "WHY DONT YOU GO APPLY FOR URSELF?" I will... I will
ask my friend now... I will learn how to type it by myself... I DONT FUCKING WANT TO DEPEND ON HIM ANYMORE!! I will die if I just wait for him to feed me ya... Ok Thank you...
and Bye...