Friendship Forever

27 oct 08 , Me , bb ,monkey and cyrus went to genting highland for our day trip there....
We took many pictures and really having fun there... There is one picture we took is about,
put our "last" fingers together... Hahaha... I just write out some words to describe that picture....

"There is a chain that tied up between you and me, Wish that our friendship could "last" forever!"

Hehe... Does it sound cool? I am loving it.. ^.^ Although nowaday I might feel lonely on my
morning shift cause you guys are not around... But I will always miss you guys and think
about our happy stuffs to make myself stay away from the loneliness, or sadness....

For those that think they could really make me quit... Get off?? Anyway... I would take it
as a life challenge... So.. Just "BRING IT ON" !

t(-.-t) (t-.-)t

Relationship Between You ,Me,He,She and Them

Relationship between each others... Sometime good and sometime "down".... I dunno how to describe the whole things... For the moment.. I feel empty... I dunno If its I think too much or whatever.. But I knew there is something happened... Between us...

Why must reality change the personality of each of them? Well.. Maybe not all... But things are like getting complicated and I am getting tired on it... Sometime I feel warm... but I sometime i feel like I have been left out from them... T.T Why is it?

Until now.. I still appreciate the friendship between you and me...(You guys should know who you are) and For those that really hurt me a lot... I guess I already stop myself from trusting them so much now.. But sometime I still cant control myself from thinking... "Are you angry with me?" "Am I doing wrong?" "Am I not good enough to be your best friend?"

And so Sorry about what happened last night... I dont mean to do that... and Dont ask me why... Its already a past tense... I dont wish to mention again.. Not a big deal anyway... But I feel something wrong with you... I wish my feeling was wrong and you are just too tired... I dont even dare to think if you really give up about me... If you did... I guess I wont care others things anymore... Ya... I think I will...

WTH is Happening?

WTF... I just found out... The key chain that I cherish the most... have lost... I cant find it...
What have I done?? Huh??? I clearly remember that I did bring it home... and I didnt put it
anywhere... Why is it missing now??? WHY WHY?!!! TELL ME WHY!!!!!!!

I hate my life... Why is it all the shit suddenly came to me? Huh? I cant stand it anymore... I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!! I want my card back... I want my key back... I want my key chain back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where did they go???!!!! I almost wipe the whole building just to find these things... But end up... I found NOTHING!!!! NOTHING MAN!!!!! WHERE DID THEY GO???!!!! DID SOMEONE TOOK IT???? GHOST??? or WHO??????!!!!!

I am totally abnormal now... You cant imagine how mad I am now... I mad at myself... Why so fucking suck... Even a small little thing... I still cant keep it nicely... I totally failed!!! FAILED!!!!!!
Can someone please slap me till I wake????? I FEEL SO BAD NOW!!!!! EVERYWHERE IS PAIN NOW!!!!!!!!! I am sad... but more is like I am mad... I wanted to cry... but the tears never want to come out.... Hahahahahahahahahaha.....

Maybe the god is having fun on me... Its taking everything from me but not my life YET.... Fine... If its what you want... Have fun with it... I hate YOU!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!

Many Things Had Happened

11:33pm , I am not sleeping yet... Normally I will be on the bed at around 8pm every night... Sigh... Many things in my mind... Suddenly think back about last time stuffs... I know the tears are coming out...

Girls... What you guys want me to do? Joseph.. Thanks for understanding me... I dunno and I dont feel like explaining all these... You guys should know well that I am not really good in words... and actually I am SO simple... I will treat u well if u treat me well too... So.. You guys know now? How am I? I dunno how to describe my feeling now... Angry? No.. Not really... Sad? No.. Not really.. Tired? Maybe...

Please... Dont ask me... What had happen? I dont fucking know what had happen as well... The drama begin on one upon a time... O.. I forgot... Its like... Nothing happen actually... Then... ask again... I answer.. Nothing happen really... Then... I get "bad face"(Maybe I too sensitive)... So...
Emo start... Today... return her a bad face too (I am so childish)... and Then... DRAMATIC!!!!
"What happen to u and her?" "Why u angry her?" Bla bla bla bla... COME ON! How the hell I know?? Can anyone get what I mean?? Grrrr... WHATEVER!

Monkey... to be honestly... I really apprectieace a friend like u... So far... You are the only "friend" of my that chat with me thru phone for like almost 1 hour... Joseph is the second one... Monkey got 44 minute and Joseph is 35minute... =.= What am I trying to show? =.= I am happy to know a friend like you... And I really know you are good... From the heart... But monkey... Its hard for me to change my mind/my mood in a very short time... You know I need time... I know you really do want us to be good to each other...

Today her mood is so so only... Sigh~ I dunno how to make her feel better... I can see her angry face d during work... I really dont want to lose a friend like you... T.T Monkey u cannot angry me de wo... NEVER EVER ya!!!!!!

What I can say/do now is... Gimme some time... But since I already sms her say I am ok d... So I am ok d... Gimme some time... Dont ever force me... Thanks...