Why I Just Cant Mix With Them

Bad Days... All the troubles looking for me at once... Trying to open a new saving account... Rejected just because My Card cannot scan... What The... Wasted one hour waiting there end off I cannot open a new account... Suck! Somemore now I dunno where to change My Card... AND Will they charge me for it? F*ck! Where the hell I got the money to pay for it... YES I AM DAMN HELL POOR NOW!!!! I dont care about my face now... I just want MONEY!

Working... Not as smooth as I think It was... Everything is like different compare with last time... When I am not a coach yet... The relationship is better... Now? I feel like everyone dont like me already.... Dunno why just feel like... These days I am damn lonely and sad... Feel like whatever I did... Just will pissed them off... What should I do? Dont care now... Whatever... Cant mix cant mix...

I swear here... I WONT lick that shit's toe for money... NEVER!!! Dont even think that I will call him as a "d a d" now... I prefer "dead"... OK FINE... NO MOOD AT ALL.... Bye!

They Both The Same

Monday I worked... Got 2 Classes... Both Chinese... Quite fun... After working.. Then only I realise its not easy for me... I used to do whatever I want... Now I have to listen and listen and listen... Just one problem that I dont really understand... Why all others can come into my bf's shop and sit for a while.. But me cant? Just because I am his gf? Well... Whatever... Just work until 31 dec.. Quite... Although its fun... But I dont suit here... Salary only can get on next year... Big company wo... What to say? Speechless... This remind me last time I help Jen's friend dance for once... Until now after one year... I still havent get any payment... I dunno who should I belief with... Whatever I dont care now... I already know all of them IS THE SAME... Just dont belief what you see... They will betray you ANYTIME... Set you up without any reason... I dont want to learn anymore... Really useless... Somemore... I really dont have any money left... I am regret now... Why would I spent all my saving in this STUPID sport... Well... Cant complain I know...

Family... Haha... They both the same... BULLSHIT... Woman got another man... and that FUCKING old man now wanna stop paying for my lesson... FINE... If I stop also I wont lost ANYTHING... Go Ahead Fucker... Dont care now... If you die... Dont wish that I will waste any of my tears.... I dont even want to be there to watch ur face... YES... Keep your money down there OK? About that woman... Happy now? By keep cheating on another man's money... Even people got wife... Enjoy that? But dont worry... The world is fair... It give u something and WILL get something from u too.... So Lets see... What u will get... Hahaha... How I wish I like others... Either parent dead... or just happy with parent... I got none... They dont die YET and We are NOT HAPPY together....

Am I dont worth to stay alive?

I am Working Now

Haha.. Just started yesterday... Stand by around the rink until 8.30pm only get my FIRST student... How to describe him? He is cute! ermm... A bit chubby... Well... He is consider chubby or u can call it overweight... I didnt mean to talk bad about him... Luckily I asked others coaches before... About what kind of student we normally will face... Ok... Never mind... Try my best to teach... First of all... Show him how to stand... Marching... Off ice... He can did it very well... Just when we go INTO the ice... He start rushing... Cant really march on the ice... I feel something is wrong... Check about his skate... Actually I think maybe not because of the skate... Just he put his weight to the wrong edge... Ok nvm.. Just go on... Asked him to hold to the wall... Try to stand straight and balance... Wow! NP at all... 10 seconds he can stand on the ice without holding anything... Just when I ask him to march... Ok... Rushing again... No choice... Must hold him... Hold until he finish his first round... Then we march again with holding to the wall... Still cant really march... Nvm... Hold him and walk another round... I think maybe he stand feeling tired and pain... His step totally mess up... I feel so worry... "OMG! Why I keep teaching but he still cannot balance and walk?" "Where is the problem? Is it the way I coach got mistake?" "Parent sure complain me then"

After 30 minute class... Although how hard I try... Still... He need to hold to the wall and holding by me... Cannot skate alone... Said sorry to his father... His father such an understanding customer... He said thanks to me... I explain to him that his son need to skate more to get his balancing... Luckily... My first lesson not as bad as I think it was... Feel bad cause after 30 minute lesson... The student still cannot skate by his own... After that day... I quickily ask Others about how to solve if I facing the same kind of student again... Get some tips... Remember them now... Now I know what is the proper way to teach when facing them again...

Today woke at 8 something cause I promise Auntie LF to be at the rink around 9... Guess what happen? T.T She didnt come today... Sigh~ Should sleep more... Never mind just stand by there... Today's first lesson... with a little girl who called Ah Nia... She is a skinny and very active... I thought should be easier... NO!! Why? Because she didnt concerntrate at ALL!! Sigh~ Although how hard I try to ask her.. "Ah Nia.. Look at me please" "Ah Nia... Show me this.." "Ah Nia.. Slowly walk" I belief that she got the talent on skating... Just cannot focus... Keep looking around... After 30 minute lesson... Said thanks to his father... His father told me that she will come again on next Saturday and take walk in lesson with me again... Quite happy about that... But just... Things always change... End up he sign up a private lesson with HJ... Sigh~ What can I say? Never mind...

Then my second lesson is with a little boy... Which 3 brothers taking walk in but 1 with me and 2 with HJ... Mine is the youngest... First step into the rink... Ask him to stand straight and balance... Not bad... Start teaching him how to march on ice... Good... Although a bit slow... But at least he listen... I like him very much... Ok start walking now... 2 steps then stand straight... Finish our first round... Adding more and more steps for him... Then teach him how to glide... Although slow but at least he can do it... Without holding my hand! Good!! So Talent man... He fell few times... But when I ask if he is ok or pain... "I am OK! No pain!" haha... Tough guy... After 30 minute... He can skate by his own... Slowly step one by one... Teach him how to get up from falling... My pant get wet :( Cause I show him how to fall and how to get up... HJ laugh at me T.T... Bad Hj~! XD Told his father about how is his lesson... I said... "He is very good in balance.. Can skate very well" Haha... Thanks to him.. Made me so happy... Really cant describe the feeling when u teach one person from they dunno how to skate till they can skate by their own...

Wait till night... 7 something... HJ went to gym.. Left me alone... Suddenly the school call me... Asking me where is HJ... Told them she is in gym... Ask if they need coach now? YES!! 2 walk in... NICE MAN!!!! 2 sisters... eldest one 16 and youngest one is 10... Haha... Their mother ask if there is any "bigger" size coach around cause she is worry if I cannot hold the eldest one... Bigger size than me... I told her not to worry cause I will teach her how to hold to the wall and hold my hand... First... I teach the jie jie... Then I ask the mei mei stay outside and practise how to march... First step into the ice... Jie jie can balance and stand 5 seconds for me... Now marching... I think adult is easier to communicate... Everything is fine... But jie jie too worry about falling... haha.. She told me that her leg feel pain because she used too much power to step each step... Told her to relax... I said its easy dont worry... Just dont feel scare or else u will so easy fall... Although jie jie is slow.. But at least... She also can balance with herself... 1 step by 1 step... We finish our first round... Then mei mei's turn... Jie jie following behind us... Although jie jie's class finish... But I still taking care about correct her...

Mei mei's class start... First step... LOL! She is SO SCARE... Told her not to scare because I will hold her... Marching... Good... Talented... So fast... We can do our 2 foot glide already... Mei mei skate faster... Haha... I told their mom... "Jie jie good in walking.. Mei mei good in gliding.." LOL! Hope them will come again... Play with them about swizzle... with both hands holding to the wall... Told them... Push a bit open ur leg then close back... Mei mei so fast get it... Jie jie slower... Ask me why she cannot close back? Haha I said.. "Off course la.. Cause u open TOO BIG la" 3 of us laughing together... This class was really fun... ^^ Mei mei 's hand position from high high getting lower and lower... end up become a penguin on ice... She said her hand very tired... Haha... We skate until the rink close... From 7 30 to 8 30...

Finish work... Go back... Now... Sitting here typing... Going to sleep soon... Tomorrow try to wake up early... If really cant only I go late... So now... Good night~

I Got The Answer

Thursday... Just met with him... Finally got the answer from him... Not a bad one but definately not a good one... I knew that life is hard... But just dunno Its this hard... Should I step in? Or give up? Like usual... He said I have "poor communication"... Actually I shouldnt complain anything here anymore... Since I want to grow up now... I wanna learn... Learn to grow up Learn to accept... Learn how to work in a team... Actually should thanks him... At least he did gimme a chance... I will accept it... OK... I already think clearly... ^^

I think I should be the first to say hi or something... Maybe a Sorry... I will do it... OK... End now... Hope today will be a good day for me...