Bad Days... All the troubles looking for me at once... Trying to open a new saving account... Rejected just because My Card cannot scan... What The... Wasted one hour waiting there end off I cannot open a new account... Suck! Somemore now I dunno where to change My Card... AND Will they charge me for it? F*ck! Where the hell I got the money to pay for it... YES I AM DAMN HELL POOR NOW!!!! I dont care about my face now... I just want MONEY!
Working... Not as smooth as I think It was... Everything is like different compare with last time... When I am not a coach yet... The relationship is better... Now? I feel like everyone dont like me already.... Dunno why just feel like... These days I am damn lonely and sad... Feel like whatever I did... Just will pissed them off... What should I do? Dont care now... Whatever... Cant mix cant mix...
I swear here... I WONT lick that shit's toe for money... NEVER!!! Dont even think that I will call him as a "d a d" now... I prefer "dead"... OK FINE... NO MOOD AT ALL.... Bye!
Thursday, November 22, 2007
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
They Both The Same
Monday I worked... Got 2 Classes... Both Chinese... Quite fun... After working.. Then only I realise its not easy for me... I used to do whatever I want... Now I have to listen and listen and listen... Just one problem that I dont really understand... Why all others can come into my bf's shop and sit for a while.. But me cant? Just because I am his gf? Well... Whatever... Just work until 31 dec.. Quite... Although its fun... But I dont suit here... Salary only can get on next year... Big company wo... What to say? Speechless... This remind me last time I help Jen's friend dance for once... Until now after one year... I still havent get any payment... I dunno who should I belief with... Whatever I dont care now... I already know all of them IS THE SAME... Just dont belief what you see... They will betray you ANYTIME... Set you up without any reason... I dont want to learn anymore... Really useless... Somemore... I really dont have any money left... I am regret now... Why would I spent all my saving in this STUPID sport... Well... Cant complain I know...
Family... Haha... They both the same... BULLSHIT... Woman got another man... and that FUCKING old man now wanna stop paying for my lesson... FINE... If I stop also I wont lost ANYTHING... Go Ahead Fucker... Dont care now... If you die... Dont wish that I will waste any of my tears.... I dont even want to be there to watch ur face... YES... Keep your money down there OK? About that woman... Happy now? By keep cheating on another man's money... Even people got wife... Enjoy that? But dont worry... The world is fair... It give u something and WILL get something from u too.... So Lets see... What u will get... Hahaha... How I wish I like others... Either parent dead... or just happy with parent... I got none... They dont die YET and We are NOT HAPPY together....
Am I dont worth to stay alive?
Family... Haha... They both the same... BULLSHIT... Woman got another man... and that FUCKING old man now wanna stop paying for my lesson... FINE... If I stop also I wont lost ANYTHING... Go Ahead Fucker... Dont care now... If you die... Dont wish that I will waste any of my tears.... I dont even want to be there to watch ur face... YES... Keep your money down there OK? About that woman... Happy now? By keep cheating on another man's money... Even people got wife... Enjoy that? But dont worry... The world is fair... It give u something and WILL get something from u too.... So Lets see... What u will get... Hahaha... How I wish I like others... Either parent dead... or just happy with parent... I got none... They dont die YET and We are NOT HAPPY together....
Am I dont worth to stay alive?
Sunday, November 18, 2007
I am Working Now
Haha.. Just started yesterday... Stand by around the rink until 8.30pm only get my FIRST student... How to describe him? He is cute! ermm... A bit chubby... Well... He is consider chubby or u can call it overweight... I didnt mean to talk bad about him... Luckily I asked others coaches before... About what kind of student we normally will face... Ok... Never mind... Try my best to teach... First of all... Show him how to stand... Marching... Off ice... He can did it very well... Just when we go INTO the ice... He start rushing... Cant really march on the ice... I feel something is wrong... Check about his skate... Actually I think maybe not because of the skate... Just he put his weight to the wrong edge... Ok nvm.. Just go on... Asked him to hold to the wall... Try to stand straight and balance... Wow! NP at all... 10 seconds he can stand on the ice without holding anything... Just when I ask him to march... Ok... Rushing again... No choice... Must hold him... Hold until he finish his first round... Then we march again with holding to the wall... Still cant really march... Nvm... Hold him and walk another round... I think maybe he stand feeling tired and pain... His step totally mess up... I feel so worry... "OMG! Why I keep teaching but he still cannot balance and walk?" "Where is the problem? Is it the way I coach got mistake?" "Parent sure complain me then"
After 30 minute class... Although how hard I try... Still... He need to hold to the wall and holding by me... Cannot skate alone... Said sorry to his father... His father such an understanding customer... He said thanks to me... I explain to him that his son need to skate more to get his balancing... Luckily... My first lesson not as bad as I think it was... Feel bad cause after 30 minute lesson... The student still cannot skate by his own... After that day... I quickily ask Others about how to solve if I facing the same kind of student again... Get some tips... Remember them now... Now I know what is the proper way to teach when facing them again...
Today woke at 8 something cause I promise Auntie LF to be at the rink around 9... Guess what happen? T.T She didnt come today... Sigh~ Should sleep more... Never mind just stand by there... Today's first lesson... with a little girl who called Ah Nia... She is a skinny and very active... I thought should be easier... NO!! Why? Because she didnt concerntrate at ALL!! Sigh~ Although how hard I try to ask her.. "Ah Nia.. Look at me please" "Ah Nia... Show me this.." "Ah Nia.. Slowly walk" I belief that she got the talent on skating... Just cannot focus... Keep looking around... After 30 minute lesson... Said thanks to his father... His father told me that she will come again on next Saturday and take walk in lesson with me again... Quite happy about that... But just... Things always change... End up he sign up a private lesson with HJ... Sigh~ What can I say? Never mind...
Then my second lesson is with a little boy... Which 3 brothers taking walk in but 1 with me and 2 with HJ... Mine is the youngest... First step into the rink... Ask him to stand straight and balance... Not bad... Start teaching him how to march on ice... Good... Although a bit slow... But at least he listen... I like him very much... Ok start walking now... 2 steps then stand straight... Finish our first round... Adding more and more steps for him... Then teach him how to glide... Although slow but at least he can do it... Without holding my hand! Good!! So Talent man... He fell few times... But when I ask if he is ok or pain... "I am OK! No pain!" haha... Tough guy... After 30 minute... He can skate by his own... Slowly step one by one... Teach him how to get up from falling... My pant get wet :( Cause I show him how to fall and how to get up... HJ laugh at me T.T... Bad Hj~! XD Told his father about how is his lesson... I said... "He is very good in balance.. Can skate very well" Haha... Thanks to him.. Made me so happy... Really cant describe the feeling when u teach one person from they dunno how to skate till they can skate by their own...
Wait till night... 7 something... HJ went to gym.. Left me alone... Suddenly the school call me... Asking me where is HJ... Told them she is in gym... Ask if they need coach now? YES!! 2 walk in... NICE MAN!!!! 2 sisters... eldest one 16 and youngest one is 10... Haha... Their mother ask if there is any "bigger" size coach around cause she is worry if I cannot hold the eldest one... Bigger size than me... I told her not to worry cause I will teach her how to hold to the wall and hold my hand... First... I teach the jie jie... Then I ask the mei mei stay outside and practise how to march... First step into the ice... Jie jie can balance and stand 5 seconds for me... Now marching... I think adult is easier to communicate... Everything is fine... But jie jie too worry about falling... haha.. She told me that her leg feel pain because she used too much power to step each step... Told her to relax... I said its easy dont worry... Just dont feel scare or else u will so easy fall... Although jie jie is slow.. But at least... She also can balance with herself... 1 step by 1 step... We finish our first round... Then mei mei's turn... Jie jie following behind us... Although jie jie's class finish... But I still taking care about correct her...
Mei mei's class start... First step... LOL! She is SO SCARE... Told her not to scare because I will hold her... Marching... Good... Talented... So fast... We can do our 2 foot glide already... Mei mei skate faster... Haha... I told their mom... "Jie jie good in walking.. Mei mei good in gliding.." LOL! Hope them will come again... Play with them about swizzle... with both hands holding to the wall... Told them... Push a bit open ur leg then close back... Mei mei so fast get it... Jie jie slower... Ask me why she cannot close back? Haha I said.. "Off course la.. Cause u open TOO BIG la" 3 of us laughing together... This class was really fun... ^^ Mei mei 's hand position from high high getting lower and lower... end up become a penguin on ice... She said her hand very tired... Haha... We skate until the rink close... From 7 30 to 8 30...
Finish work... Go back... Now... Sitting here typing... Going to sleep soon... Tomorrow try to wake up early... If really cant only I go late... So now... Good night~
After 30 minute class... Although how hard I try... Still... He need to hold to the wall and holding by me... Cannot skate alone... Said sorry to his father... His father such an understanding customer... He said thanks to me... I explain to him that his son need to skate more to get his balancing... Luckily... My first lesson not as bad as I think it was... Feel bad cause after 30 minute lesson... The student still cannot skate by his own... After that day... I quickily ask Others about how to solve if I facing the same kind of student again... Get some tips... Remember them now... Now I know what is the proper way to teach when facing them again...
Today woke at 8 something cause I promise Auntie LF to be at the rink around 9... Guess what happen? T.T She didnt come today... Sigh~ Should sleep more... Never mind just stand by there... Today's first lesson... with a little girl who called Ah Nia... She is a skinny and very active... I thought should be easier... NO!! Why? Because she didnt concerntrate at ALL!! Sigh~ Although how hard I try to ask her.. "Ah Nia.. Look at me please" "Ah Nia... Show me this.." "Ah Nia.. Slowly walk" I belief that she got the talent on skating... Just cannot focus... Keep looking around... After 30 minute lesson... Said thanks to his father... His father told me that she will come again on next Saturday and take walk in lesson with me again... Quite happy about that... But just... Things always change... End up he sign up a private lesson with HJ... Sigh~ What can I say? Never mind...
Then my second lesson is with a little boy... Which 3 brothers taking walk in but 1 with me and 2 with HJ... Mine is the youngest... First step into the rink... Ask him to stand straight and balance... Not bad... Start teaching him how to march on ice... Good... Although a bit slow... But at least he listen... I like him very much... Ok start walking now... 2 steps then stand straight... Finish our first round... Adding more and more steps for him... Then teach him how to glide... Although slow but at least he can do it... Without holding my hand! Good!! So Talent man... He fell few times... But when I ask if he is ok or pain... "I am OK! No pain!" haha... Tough guy... After 30 minute... He can skate by his own... Slowly step one by one... Teach him how to get up from falling... My pant get wet :( Cause I show him how to fall and how to get up... HJ laugh at me T.T... Bad Hj~! XD Told his father about how is his lesson... I said... "He is very good in balance.. Can skate very well" Haha... Thanks to him.. Made me so happy... Really cant describe the feeling when u teach one person from they dunno how to skate till they can skate by their own...
Wait till night... 7 something... HJ went to gym.. Left me alone... Suddenly the school call me... Asking me where is HJ... Told them she is in gym... Ask if they need coach now? YES!! 2 walk in... NICE MAN!!!! 2 sisters... eldest one 16 and youngest one is 10... Haha... Their mother ask if there is any "bigger" size coach around cause she is worry if I cannot hold the eldest one... Bigger size than me... I told her not to worry cause I will teach her how to hold to the wall and hold my hand... First... I teach the jie jie... Then I ask the mei mei stay outside and practise how to march... First step into the ice... Jie jie can balance and stand 5 seconds for me... Now marching... I think adult is easier to communicate... Everything is fine... But jie jie too worry about falling... haha.. She told me that her leg feel pain because she used too much power to step each step... Told her to relax... I said its easy dont worry... Just dont feel scare or else u will so easy fall... Although jie jie is slow.. But at least... She also can balance with herself... 1 step by 1 step... We finish our first round... Then mei mei's turn... Jie jie following behind us... Although jie jie's class finish... But I still taking care about correct her...
Mei mei's class start... First step... LOL! She is SO SCARE... Told her not to scare because I will hold her... Marching... Good... Talented... So fast... We can do our 2 foot glide already... Mei mei skate faster... Haha... I told their mom... "Jie jie good in walking.. Mei mei good in gliding.." LOL! Hope them will come again... Play with them about swizzle... with both hands holding to the wall... Told them... Push a bit open ur leg then close back... Mei mei so fast get it... Jie jie slower... Ask me why she cannot close back? Haha I said.. "Off course la.. Cause u open TOO BIG la" 3 of us laughing together... This class was really fun... ^^ Mei mei 's hand position from high high getting lower and lower... end up become a penguin on ice... She said her hand very tired... Haha... We skate until the rink close... From 7 30 to 8 30...
Finish work... Go back... Now... Sitting here typing... Going to sleep soon... Tomorrow try to wake up early... If really cant only I go late... So now... Good night~
Thursday, November 1, 2007
I Got The Answer
Thursday... Just met with him... Finally got the answer from him... Not a bad one but definately not a good one... I knew that life is hard... But just dunno Its this hard... Should I step in? Or give up? Like usual... He said I have "poor communication"... Actually I shouldnt complain anything here anymore... Since I want to grow up now... I wanna learn... Learn to grow up Learn to accept... Learn how to work in a team... Actually should thanks him... At least he did gimme a chance... I will accept it... OK... I already think clearly... ^^
I think I should be the first to say hi or something... Maybe a Sorry... I will do it... OK... End now... Hope today will be a good day for me...
I think I should be the first to say hi or something... Maybe a Sorry... I will do it... OK... End now... Hope today will be a good day for me...
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
When I Feel Bored
Just start working on monday... Selling handphones.... Kinda bored... and I am quite "out"dated.. Lucikly... Still got customer willing to buy phone from me... Sold 2 out... Haha... Then today wasnt that good "luck"... 0 phone out... T.T Does this mean no salary for me? T.T Sigh~ So when I was bored... I wrote many things in some papers... About love... About a letter that I wanted to write so long... About some others stuffs... Just simply write...
LOL... One of them is about... I think myself dont like that guy anymore... The one used to be the one I like the most... Just excited when I saw him last 2 days ago... My heart beats doesnt change to a high speed for him... Does it mean... I Dont like him anymore? XD Great!!! The my heart still got a little free space now? XD Grrr... *slap myself* I know I know... XD I got my BB already... Shouldnt think about others now... LOL... Honestly... The place I work now... Everyday can see quite many "handsome" one... Just walk through me... Since my stall near with "toilet"... LOL... Dont worry its not smelly... Hope my heart strong enough... Can stay away from the handsome one... Dont worry... BB still the best!!! XD
By the way... Today I received a call... From K... She told me that "he" is looking for me... Made me feel so excited... I dunno what he gonna tell me... K told me was a good news... But I dont want myself feel so happy about it first... Cause... Always when I hope it so much... It disappointed me then... I hope thursday can come faster now... Cause we will meet at Thursday... "GOD! Please dont fool me anymore!!!!" *I pray*
Just went to the party... Ionna won the 2nd places... I did vote for her ^^... Kawaii!!!! Beside this... Everything still the same... I am thinking... Should I be the first who say "hi"? Will I get respond from her then? I just dunno how and where to start... Sigh~ Whatever....
LOL... One of them is about... I think myself dont like that guy anymore... The one used to be the one I like the most... Just excited when I saw him last 2 days ago... My heart beats doesnt change to a high speed for him... Does it mean... I Dont like him anymore? XD Great!!! The my heart still got a little free space now? XD Grrr... *slap myself* I know I know... XD I got my BB already... Shouldnt think about others now... LOL... Honestly... The place I work now... Everyday can see quite many "handsome" one... Just walk through me... Since my stall near with "toilet"... LOL... Dont worry its not smelly... Hope my heart strong enough... Can stay away from the handsome one... Dont worry... BB still the best!!! XD
By the way... Today I received a call... From K... She told me that "he" is looking for me... Made me feel so excited... I dunno what he gonna tell me... K told me was a good news... But I dont want myself feel so happy about it first... Cause... Always when I hope it so much... It disappointed me then... I hope thursday can come faster now... Cause we will meet at Thursday... "GOD! Please dont fool me anymore!!!!" *I pray*
Just went to the party... Ionna won the 2nd places... I did vote for her ^^... Kawaii!!!! Beside this... Everything still the same... I am thinking... Should I be the first who say "hi"? Will I get respond from her then? I just dunno how and where to start... Sigh~ Whatever....
Sunday, October 28, 2007
I am Quiting
Twisted again... Made me feel really bored... Everyday spend with the pain... So I think... Why should I still making myself injured because of this? I know that I will never get anything back from this... Nah... Now I dont want anything back from this... It used to be my everything once... Although mom n dad always ask me to quit... I dont listen... and Now I start to feel regret... Why dont I listen? Look at my foot... Both of them with extra "bones" or "meat" or whatever u call... Look so scary... and my Right leg... my Back... always in pain... Its ruined my future... I have to spent the rest of my life with all these pain...
Axel? Although I can land... But... Is it really that good?? I mean although u can land it... But why do u want it so much? For me... Yea... Honestly... I feel so proud when I landed my axel... But try to think back... I paid a lots for it... My all Saving for the skate... My time... and My both leg... Twisted many times.... Does it really worth? If you ask me two week ago... You will get a YES... I WILLING TO DIE FOR IT... But the truth is...
I really cant... I really cant waste anything, anymore on it... Yea... After freestyle 6 Test... I will stop... LOL Why after 6? Since I got double sal... I cant waste it... Just try my best... If failed then never mind lo... Hahaha...
Will start working soon... Although I really dont like it... But no choice... I gotta work... Or else I will be suffer for the spends of the days... and Its time to save for money to prepare a nice present for my honey.... <3 <3
Wanna learn again singing... So gotta work harded now... Should practise hard on my piano now... Grade 7 d... v(^.^)v.... Actually I know I am not good enough on my piano... Sigh~ So lazy... What to do...
Friends... Hehe... I got em back... I really should grow up a bit... But gimme some time... I am still learning.... I know I am childish now... Just gimme some time...
Axel? Although I can land... But... Is it really that good?? I mean although u can land it... But why do u want it so much? For me... Yea... Honestly... I feel so proud when I landed my axel... But try to think back... I paid a lots for it... My all Saving for the skate... My time... and My both leg... Twisted many times.... Does it really worth? If you ask me two week ago... You will get a YES... I WILLING TO DIE FOR IT... But the truth is...
I really cant... I really cant waste anything, anymore on it... Yea... After freestyle 6 Test... I will stop... LOL Why after 6? Since I got double sal... I cant waste it... Just try my best... If failed then never mind lo... Hahaha...
Will start working soon... Although I really dont like it... But no choice... I gotta work... Or else I will be suffer for the spends of the days... and Its time to save for money to prepare a nice present for my honey.... <3 <3
Wanna learn again singing... So gotta work harded now... Should practise hard on my piano now... Grade 7 d... v(^.^)v.... Actually I know I am not good enough on my piano... Sigh~ So lazy... What to do...
Friends... Hehe... I got em back... I really should grow up a bit... But gimme some time... I am still learning.... I know I am childish now... Just gimme some time...
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Yesterday.Today and Tomorrow
Wow... I am kinda "Hardworking" this month~ XD Wrote so many stuffs here... Is good~ =p....Maybe just because this month is my birth month~ XD got quite many presents this year... Hahaha... Got my first "Roxy" t-shirt from A.C.Milan,A.Jennifer,Dian n Bee Leng.... Thanks a lot... haha... Although I know they wont read this... then a "Nike" t-shirt from A.Irene... Thanks Thanks... How come she know that I love Nike so much? XD then 2 Converse t shirt from Aiza and somebody... and a Kawaii Cup from S.C...and an Angpao... haha...
Wanna know what present my honey buy for me?? =p SECRET!!!! LOL.... Jk... Actually... His present is.... "NO LIMIT WALKING ATM MACHINE x 1"(My boyfriend lo) WAKAKAKAKA.... Nice? No la... Just lemme buy those that I need and I wanted so much one lo... Hehe... ^.^
Lets back to the topic... What I did Yesterday???ermmm... Friday - Skating Lesson... Fell badly....yea again.... then TWISTED my right leg AGAIN.... Super bad luck right? Sigh~ Then... ermmm... Nothing much.... Played with some kids.... I love kids... Dont you realise that? XD Made some bracelet for them... Ionna still hate me T.T... Knew a new little gal named Hally... She is cute... At least she loved me ^^ Then have dinner with A.C.Milan ,U.Wong and Dian...
Today? ermmm.... So exited about the date later(Red Box Sing K)... With Kwan... So long time didnt see her already... Honestly... She is such a good person... Although I did so many bad things on her last time... She still forgive me and still staying there waiting for me... Sigh... I feel myself like a child who has lost her way... and now finally find the way to get back home... Thanks a lot Kwan... I just dunno why I always like that... Sigh~
Tomorrow.... Honestly I got no plan for tomorrow... Sunday... Seem to be a bad day for me... If I go to the ice rink... I will meet those I dont like de... LOL Dont be suprise about that.... I got quite " ALOT " enermies.... Will stay home maybe... Kinda like my house now cause I can sleep all I want... Then play the computer and piano all I want... No one will disturb me... XD No one at home how to disturb me leh... =.="
Well... Its all for now... Good night~
Wanna know what present my honey buy for me?? =p SECRET!!!! LOL.... Jk... Actually... His present is.... "NO LIMIT WALKING ATM MACHINE x 1"(My boyfriend lo) WAKAKAKAKA.... Nice? No la... Just lemme buy those that I need and I wanted so much one lo... Hehe... ^.^
Lets back to the topic... What I did Yesterday???ermmm... Friday - Skating Lesson... Fell badly....yea again.... then TWISTED my right leg AGAIN.... Super bad luck right? Sigh~ Then... ermmm... Nothing much.... Played with some kids.... I love kids... Dont you realise that? XD Made some bracelet for them... Ionna still hate me T.T... Knew a new little gal named Hally... She is cute... At least she loved me ^^ Then have dinner with A.C.Milan ,U.Wong and Dian...
Today? ermmm.... So exited about the date later(Red Box Sing K)... With Kwan... So long time didnt see her already... Honestly... She is such a good person... Although I did so many bad things on her last time... She still forgive me and still staying there waiting for me... Sigh... I feel myself like a child who has lost her way... and now finally find the way to get back home... Thanks a lot Kwan... I just dunno why I always like that... Sigh~
Tomorrow.... Honestly I got no plan for tomorrow... Sunday... Seem to be a bad day for me... If I go to the ice rink... I will meet those I dont like de... LOL Dont be suprise about that.... I got quite " ALOT " enermies.... Will stay home maybe... Kinda like my house now cause I can sleep all I want... Then play the computer and piano all I want... No one will disturb me... XD No one at home how to disturb me leh... =.="
Well... Its all for now... Good night~
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
New Life New Hairstyle
I decided to start my new life... with my new hairstyle... LOL... Actually nothing special there.. Really... Just I think I need a "New Look"... From inside to outside... ermmm... Just pass my birthday... Done a small party... Honestly... That party was cool and fun... But no more... Cause I ignore some of them now... Read the previous page and you will know why... Grrr... Whatever~
I am me,myself... I swear already I wont let "anyone" to hurt me... No one not anymore... I ignore few of them... Although just because of some very "small" case... for you guys maybe... But for me... Its enough to lemme stay away from them... Dont too over joking on me... Serious... I am not those type that can "PLAY"... I cannot... I so "small gas"... Really... So... Bla~
I did something really bad... Yea I know its... No choice... This is me... When you are "NOT" my friend anymore... Why should I treat u as a "friend"? XD Nah~ Dont waste our time huh? Dont worry... Actually not their fault or whatever... Just me... Too sensitive... Nah Its fine.. I dont want to change it... I dont think I need to change it.. Since its "ME"... Just remember to stay away... Pretend never know me before... Maybe that is better... I am RUDE am I? XD Never mind... I dont care anything nowaday... I left nothing dont I? XD Ermm Yea I left my Elwin....
Congrat to that Bastard that just go up to my "I HATE THE MOST" list... Num 1.... XD Yea A Boy... Poor Him... Now In My Eyes... He is just a PIECE OF SHIT! Although some of them see him as a god or something... Different person Different eyes... I hate him the most... No Reason... Or Maybe there is TOO MANY Reasons... Now I just dont want to see/ talk about him anymore....
ermmm... Beside these bad things happen... Lets talk about my family... I stopped talking with that "man" aka those u will call as a "dad"... My youngest bro? Sometime sometime... Eldest? Ok Ok lo... Mom? I LOVE MOM! Well sometime... At least... She talk with me everytime... Well... She happy then I also will happy de la....
I am kinda tired about Ice Skating now... Will focus on my piano... It become a Bad Dream for me... Nightmare...
I am me,myself... I swear already I wont let "anyone" to hurt me... No one not anymore... I ignore few of them... Although just because of some very "small" case... for you guys maybe... But for me... Its enough to lemme stay away from them... Dont too over joking on me... Serious... I am not those type that can "PLAY"... I cannot... I so "small gas"... Really... So... Bla~
I did something really bad... Yea I know its... No choice... This is me... When you are "NOT" my friend anymore... Why should I treat u as a "friend"? XD Nah~ Dont waste our time huh? Dont worry... Actually not their fault or whatever... Just me... Too sensitive... Nah Its fine.. I dont want to change it... I dont think I need to change it.. Since its "ME"... Just remember to stay away... Pretend never know me before... Maybe that is better... I am RUDE am I? XD Never mind... I dont care anything nowaday... I left nothing dont I? XD Ermm Yea I left my Elwin....
Congrat to that Bastard that just go up to my "I HATE THE MOST" list... Num 1.... XD Yea A Boy... Poor Him... Now In My Eyes... He is just a PIECE OF SHIT! Although some of them see him as a god or something... Different person Different eyes... I hate him the most... No Reason... Or Maybe there is TOO MANY Reasons... Now I just dont want to see/ talk about him anymore....
ermmm... Beside these bad things happen... Lets talk about my family... I stopped talking with that "man" aka those u will call as a "dad"... My youngest bro? Sometime sometime... Eldest? Ok Ok lo... Mom? I LOVE MOM! Well sometime... At least... She talk with me everytime... Well... She happy then I also will happy de la....
I am kinda tired about Ice Skating now... Will focus on my piano... It become a Bad Dream for me... Nightmare...
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Dear Diary
Oct...My birth month~ Just realise that it have been a while... I never log into here... Since I stop talking with em? Actually... If you ask me why now... I got no answer for you... But when I go into Phuah's blog... I saw that their life there... Seem so happy... Hahaha... Really... I feel happy for em...
Many things have changed... My life... My Friends list... As I said not long ago in my friendster profile... I am a sensitive person... Friends for me is easy to get but hard to keep... Everytime when I feel or I think that they are going to hurt me... I will leave them... Without reason... or When I feel that I am not that important for them too... Just like today... Disappointed again... Just realise I treat them with my true heart and try my best to help them... I wont get the same treated from them... Seem like I did the stupid things again....I should never ever pay my true heart... Why always just fall into it? Friendship?
Today I cried... I sad... I totally broken heart... There is no one that can really understand and talk to me... Except a new friend who called "Cold"... At least he lemme finish my words... Although he is not that close or that good friend with me... Still... His status is always "Online" for me... At least lemme know that I still got "someone" to talk with... There is a friend... I thought we were good friend... But everytime I talk to her... I will just get this "Ohhhh"... hahaha... Seem like I am not important enough for her... Even when I am in this sad moment... She just rushing offline but not staying for me... Never mind... I know what to do now...
I swear.. Not anymore... My heart my smiling face... I will keep em tightly... No one worth to get em... No one... Except the one I left... Elwin.. My everything... The reason I live for... My Only family... I willing to give all up now... Mom Dad Bros... I willing to give em up... Today I totally see through everything... Clear enough.. Till I feel like... "Is this really my family? Hahahahaha... Why me? This is my life?"
Someone's wedding dinner today... No space for me so I stay at home... Wait till they come back... No one ask that if I eat already... Never mind I wait... Ask mom if she can tapao... Mom busy with friends... Never mind... Dad? Busy working... Come back just a while.. Then rushing out... Never mind.. Wait Elwin... 2am... My brunch I took at 1pm... Feel that I need to eat... Called Jia Yoke... She said she will come and take me... So happy... I wait... Then She called me again... Said cannot make it... She gotta go out with her family... Oh... :( ... Try to wait then... Called Dad again... He said "You think I no need work? I got so much works here... I eat already" Oh... Suddenly feel that... Why just one meal... No one willing to eat with me? Tears cannot control.. I hide in my room... Cry... Looking at my msn list... Found that "Cold" is in online status... Pmed him... and said my things... I guess he dunno that I am crying... I didnt said I cry... finish my words... Feel like no help... Search for another one... Pmed Kar Meng... She is watching drama.. I said nvm... She said is ok... So I told her... Suprise to hear that she havent eat also... Feel much better... Then I saw Kei online.... Pmed her.. Told her... I totally broken heart... She said why... Then i forgot what we chat... but just a while... She rushing to offline... "Oh" Hahahaha... Got it now... She stopped my tears... Instead of making me wanna close my heart from her... No more true heart... I decided to close it tightly... No more smiling face... She dont worth it... Isnt it?
Mood feel better when chatting abit with Cold... Chatting about my pass.. then dad came back... Bathing then he ask that if I wanna go tapao... I feel happy that he still care about me... But so fast... He made me drops into a big deep hole.... Hahaha... While going to tapao... We chat a bit... I asked that if I can eat there instead of tapao... He seem to answer it with a very bad mood... "I got lots of works havent finish.." "Isnt it saturday today?" "So?You think I no need work?" "I thought today u still playing mahjong in afternoon?" "Mahjong is my free time! I got my own free time! Non of ur bussiness! You got car license why dont you drive?" "We can U turn go home actually if you are that busy.. I can dont eat" "Until now only u say this... I already drive this far" "If you are really that busy u can tell me not to go tapao" "Whateva you like to say"
end conversation...
This family.. I really got no hope on it anymore... Marry? Not as simple as you think... Cold told me... " I finally know why u dont trust others " yea... Just because I grow in this family... I learn it... from them... Some words that I always got from him... "If one day I leave this home...You all will be eating shit" "I dont care whateva you all will be in future... I just want to keep my money till I old"
Many things have changed... My life... My Friends list... As I said not long ago in my friendster profile... I am a sensitive person... Friends for me is easy to get but hard to keep... Everytime when I feel or I think that they are going to hurt me... I will leave them... Without reason... or When I feel that I am not that important for them too... Just like today... Disappointed again... Just realise I treat them with my true heart and try my best to help them... I wont get the same treated from them... Seem like I did the stupid things again....I should never ever pay my true heart... Why always just fall into it? Friendship?
Today I cried... I sad... I totally broken heart... There is no one that can really understand and talk to me... Except a new friend who called "Cold"... At least he lemme finish my words... Although he is not that close or that good friend with me... Still... His status is always "Online" for me... At least lemme know that I still got "someone" to talk with... There is a friend... I thought we were good friend... But everytime I talk to her... I will just get this "Ohhhh"... hahaha... Seem like I am not important enough for her... Even when I am in this sad moment... She just rushing offline but not staying for me... Never mind... I know what to do now...
I swear.. Not anymore... My heart my smiling face... I will keep em tightly... No one worth to get em... No one... Except the one I left... Elwin.. My everything... The reason I live for... My Only family... I willing to give all up now... Mom Dad Bros... I willing to give em up... Today I totally see through everything... Clear enough.. Till I feel like... "Is this really my family? Hahahahaha... Why me? This is my life?"
Someone's wedding dinner today... No space for me so I stay at home... Wait till they come back... No one ask that if I eat already... Never mind I wait... Ask mom if she can tapao... Mom busy with friends... Never mind... Dad? Busy working... Come back just a while.. Then rushing out... Never mind.. Wait Elwin... 2am... My brunch I took at 1pm... Feel that I need to eat... Called Jia Yoke... She said she will come and take me... So happy... I wait... Then She called me again... Said cannot make it... She gotta go out with her family... Oh... :( ... Try to wait then... Called Dad again... He said "You think I no need work? I got so much works here... I eat already" Oh... Suddenly feel that... Why just one meal... No one willing to eat with me? Tears cannot control.. I hide in my room... Cry... Looking at my msn list... Found that "Cold" is in online status... Pmed him... and said my things... I guess he dunno that I am crying... I didnt said I cry... finish my words... Feel like no help... Search for another one... Pmed Kar Meng... She is watching drama.. I said nvm... She said is ok... So I told her... Suprise to hear that she havent eat also... Feel much better... Then I saw Kei online.... Pmed her.. Told her... I totally broken heart... She said why... Then i forgot what we chat... but just a while... She rushing to offline... "Oh" Hahahaha... Got it now... She stopped my tears... Instead of making me wanna close my heart from her... No more true heart... I decided to close it tightly... No more smiling face... She dont worth it... Isnt it?
Mood feel better when chatting abit with Cold... Chatting about my pass.. then dad came back... Bathing then he ask that if I wanna go tapao... I feel happy that he still care about me... But so fast... He made me drops into a big deep hole.... Hahaha... While going to tapao... We chat a bit... I asked that if I can eat there instead of tapao... He seem to answer it with a very bad mood... "I got lots of works havent finish.." "Isnt it saturday today?" "So?You think I no need work?" "I thought today u still playing mahjong in afternoon?" "Mahjong is my free time! I got my own free time! Non of ur bussiness! You got car license why dont you drive?" "We can U turn go home actually if you are that busy.. I can dont eat" "Until now only u say this... I already drive this far" "If you are really that busy u can tell me not to go tapao" "Whateva you like to say"
end conversation...
This family.. I really got no hope on it anymore... Marry? Not as simple as you think... Cold told me... " I finally know why u dont trust others " yea... Just because I grow in this family... I learn it... from them... Some words that I always got from him... "If one day I leave this home...You all will be eating shit" "I dont care whateva you all will be in future... I just want to keep my money till I old"
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Double Jumps
Woohoo... Just realise I didnt touch this blog for few months~ XD I am sorry~ Many things happened... But I am too lazy to write em down... Some bad one and some good one...
Recently I am kinda busy on piano,ice skating, and singing class... Out of idea about composing songs T.T... I think my singing improve after taking singing classes(better than last time lo.. but still learning and long long way to go yet... XD)
How about Ice Skating? Woohoo... I started learning double jumps... Double salchow Double toe... and Double loop... I feel good ^^ Although I cant land em yet... Landed double salc few times... Double loop made me fell down badly... About my axel... Sometime lost and sometime landed :) Now I wish to jump higher... Thinking about diet... But sigh~ All knew that I will NEVER succeed =.="
Oh yea.. There is ONE BITCH that VERY VERY pissed me off... She used to "call" herself "ICE PRINCESS of M'sia" and walk with her "small size" boobs upwards.... She is totally a BITCH! Since I start learning ice skating I already feel "dislike" on her... She used to look down on me with her "doggie" eyes... Cause what? She is RICH and I am POOR... Sigh~ Poor me~ Whatever~
Remember there is once... I heard she told her student that "I" DUNNO how to skate(yep she pointed at me) Walao~ She is really "GOOD" in skating la~ With using her "toe pick" ^^ clapping for her... XD I decided to beat her down... And I think NOW... I am on my half way to kick her down from her place... Beside I am not a COACH yet... ^^ Grrr
Last saturday... This bitch "PUSH" my back and said "Excuse Me"... Imaging HOW ANGRY I AM atm... Then she doing her "NICE" spins for the DJs(Dunno what fm's djs came to skate and she in charge on coaching em)... I did the same spins too... ^^ Guess what? OFF COURSE MINE IS MUCH MUCH BETTER LA...(according to the skaters observing my spins) *cough* I aint wanna show off... JUST WANNA BEAT HER... AND LET HER KNOW THAT SHE IS OLD NOW AND NOT ONLY HER CAN DO IT... SO DONT TRY TO CALL HERSELF THE BEST...
She is totally a "COPY CAT" too... Saw her teaching one of her student "double loop" today(that student cant even land axel yet...)... LOL Just because she saw I LEARN it yesterday????? XD Ok.. If This is what she want... I accept it... Bring It On... I will PRACTISE HARDER from now on... Lets see...
+some news... I watch how she losing during the competition to 2 small kids... She CANT land her axel nor double salchow now... I dont join competition cause I dont have those "extra" money to spend... But everyday I am challenging myself and my friends... Just want to break records... I "will" show off when I feel like I "want" to... and To "THOSE" who like to "show off" XD...This is how I am~
"Dear Miss S :
:p :p :p :p
Kiss My Ass?????"
Recently I am kinda busy on piano,ice skating, and singing class... Out of idea about composing songs T.T... I think my singing improve after taking singing classes(better than last time lo.. but still learning and long long way to go yet... XD)
How about Ice Skating? Woohoo... I started learning double jumps... Double salchow Double toe... and Double loop... I feel good ^^ Although I cant land em yet... Landed double salc few times... Double loop made me fell down badly... About my axel... Sometime lost and sometime landed :) Now I wish to jump higher... Thinking about diet... But sigh~ All knew that I will NEVER succeed =.="
Oh yea.. There is ONE BITCH that VERY VERY pissed me off... She used to "call" herself "ICE PRINCESS of M'sia" and walk with her "small size" boobs upwards.... She is totally a BITCH! Since I start learning ice skating I already feel "dislike" on her... She used to look down on me with her "doggie" eyes... Cause what? She is RICH and I am POOR... Sigh~ Poor me~ Whatever~
Remember there is once... I heard she told her student that "I" DUNNO how to skate(yep she pointed at me) Walao~ She is really "GOOD" in skating la~ With using her "toe pick" ^^ clapping for her... XD I decided to beat her down... And I think NOW... I am on my half way to kick her down from her place... Beside I am not a COACH yet... ^^ Grrr
Last saturday... This bitch "PUSH" my back and said "Excuse Me"... Imaging HOW ANGRY I AM atm... Then she doing her "NICE" spins for the DJs(Dunno what fm's djs came to skate and she in charge on coaching em)... I did the same spins too... ^^ Guess what? OFF COURSE MINE IS MUCH MUCH BETTER LA...(according to the skaters observing my spins) *cough* I aint wanna show off... JUST WANNA BEAT HER... AND LET HER KNOW THAT SHE IS OLD NOW AND NOT ONLY HER CAN DO IT... SO DONT TRY TO CALL HERSELF THE BEST...
She is totally a "COPY CAT" too... Saw her teaching one of her student "double loop" today(that student cant even land axel yet...)... LOL Just because she saw I LEARN it yesterday????? XD Ok.. If This is what she want... I accept it... Bring It On... I will PRACTISE HARDER from now on... Lets see...
+some news... I watch how she losing during the competition to 2 small kids... She CANT land her axel nor double salchow now... I dont join competition cause I dont have those "extra" money to spend... But everyday I am challenging myself and my friends... Just want to break records... I "will" show off when I feel like I "want" to... and To "THOSE" who like to "show off" XD...This is how I am~
"Dear Miss S :
:p :p :p :p
Kiss My Ass?????"
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
My songs
Recently I found myself in love with composing songs... and I just realise Its not easy at all... I accept my friends' comments... So I keep on changing the rhythm n lyrics... But I dunno If its better now... Honestly... Its kinda hard for me to accept comments... When I got the bad comments... I will be sad for sure(Well many times)... The first song I compose.. Not many of them(my friends) seem to be loving it.. :( Cept Kwan... ^^ She like the lyrics.. Thanks ^^ and I feel like dont want to change the first song(Dui Bu Qi) anymore... I feel like Its already lost the very first rhythm I compose last time... T.T
Last night.. I slept at 5am... Why? Because song idea suddenly come to me... I made another new song without midi... "Qi Ji" Oh god! I am so happy about the new one... The first person I sent it to.. He said he love it.. But.. His words hurt me a lot.. He said that I should let others to sing the song I compose... I know where is my singing problem... Voice viberation(dunno if I spell it wrong)... I cant control it well... That is why I wanna learn singing.. But today when I ask my mom to bring me look for a teacher... U guys guess what the fucking words she said? "Insane.. Dont waste the money.." How selfish she is! She said if I am "Lucky" to find a teacher... Then I have to drive there and she is not fetching me(I almost bang people's car last time.. now I dont really dare to drive)
Till the end.. I still feel like I wanna sing back the songs I made.. I wasted my bed time to make those.. I love singing that is why I compose.. So.. My songs.. I will sing them myself... and.. I HATE U MOM!
Last night.. I slept at 5am... Why? Because song idea suddenly come to me... I made another new song without midi... "Qi Ji" Oh god! I am so happy about the new one... The first person I sent it to.. He said he love it.. But.. His words hurt me a lot.. He said that I should let others to sing the song I compose... I know where is my singing problem... Voice viberation(dunno if I spell it wrong)... I cant control it well... That is why I wanna learn singing.. But today when I ask my mom to bring me look for a teacher... U guys guess what the fucking words she said? "Insane.. Dont waste the money.." How selfish she is! She said if I am "Lucky" to find a teacher... Then I have to drive there and she is not fetching me(I almost bang people's car last time.. now I dont really dare to drive)
Till the end.. I still feel like I wanna sing back the songs I made.. I wasted my bed time to make those.. I love singing that is why I compose.. So.. My songs.. I will sing them myself... and.. I HATE U MOM!
Monday, February 12, 2007
Done Performance~ Valentine's Day Coming Soon <3
YAY!!! BRAVO!!!! ^^ Finally the performance days are end now ^^ >.< I miss my hair styles now T.T Everything is good today... Just my hair style today look like "Chun Li" XD or Sailormoon~ T.T I think Its weird for me... But they said still OK.. =.=" I did smile for the show today... Hahahahah... Exspecially the LAST show~ Crowded again~ Today my dress not that tight like yesterday already.. Mom sew it for me ^^ (But keep on saying I so "Ma Fan" =.=") Yea.. I think maybe because of my good friend SC~ So that girl start to talk "a bit" with me.. Today she help me to "clip" my hair(cause its messy already XD) Teaching me a bit on some spins.. Should say Thanks then.. LoL... But one of my good friend(also SC's good friend) still dont really like her...
Sunway gave me 5 FREE tickets for skating as my reward... XD 5 Tickets also got my name on it... "Thank You bla bla bla for the performance "1 Night in Shanghai"" Hahahaha... Is Happy ^^ At least I think I pay RM35 is worth it~ 5 Tickets~ <3 <3
Today I reach home about 5pm.. VERY TIRED.. but still so happy ^^ So I slept from 6pm until 11pm~ Still a bit tired now... Gonna sleep so soon I think.. After some movies n anime..
Oh yea... Just now went dinner with my BB... He asked what I want for the valentine's day... I just realise its coming SOON.. =.=" Blur blur me.. I told him no need to buy or just save money for my skating lessons(lol yea.. he sponsor me now).. Maybe just buy 2 ribbons... one tie on me and one tie on him.. XD then we exchange present... Hahahahaha.... Lets see... T.T The performance bring me happy but still... It made my hair become not as straight as last time already T.T MY HAIR!!! T.T So sad about It T.T
Sunway gave me 5 FREE tickets for skating as my reward... XD 5 Tickets also got my name on it... "Thank You bla bla bla for the performance "1 Night in Shanghai"" Hahahaha... Is Happy ^^ At least I think I pay RM35 is worth it~ 5 Tickets~ <3 <3
Today I reach home about 5pm.. VERY TIRED.. but still so happy ^^ So I slept from 6pm until 11pm~ Still a bit tired now... Gonna sleep so soon I think.. After some movies n anime..
Oh yea... Just now went dinner with my BB... He asked what I want for the valentine's day... I just realise its coming SOON.. =.=" Blur blur me.. I told him no need to buy or just save money for my skating lessons(lol yea.. he sponsor me now).. Maybe just buy 2 ribbons... one tie on me and one tie on him.. XD then we exchange present... Hahahahaha.... Lets see... T.T The performance bring me happy but still... It made my hair become not as straight as last time already T.T MY HAIR!!! T.T So sad about It T.T
Saturday, February 10, 2007
Performance Days
I cant feel my leg... XD Too tired... Since Tuesday until now... Today is the second performance day.. Everything is fine( I think ).. Kwan n Phuah come to see the show yesterday(Friday Night) and Jun Loong came today ^^.... Thanks again to them for coming~ But here I gotta say sorry to Jun Loong cause I cant really chat much with him(show time start).. Didnt even say bye when I saw him going back... :( Sorry Jun Loong~
Today finally that high level girl talk to me.. Asking my name.. She seem much better than last time.. At least the way she looking at you wont let u feel she is looking down on u anymore... Is good ^^
My "chiong sam" really DAMN BIG for me... But today the girl(yea that one)'s mom help me to sew a bit... so Its TIGHT now.. =.= too tight~ XD Look really scary~ What made me so happy today is... MY HAIR STYLE!!! I am loving it.. XD
Tomorrow there will be the last performance already~ So Good Luck to myself~
Today finally that high level girl talk to me.. Asking my name.. She seem much better than last time.. At least the way she looking at you wont let u feel she is looking down on u anymore... Is good ^^
My "chiong sam" really DAMN BIG for me... But today the girl(yea that one)'s mom help me to sew a bit... so Its TIGHT now.. =.= too tight~ XD Look really scary~ What made me so happy today is... MY HAIR STYLE!!! I am loving it.. XD
Tomorrow there will be the last performance already~ So Good Luck to myself~
Wednesday, February 7, 2007
Pennyless( I Need To Get A Job! )
*sigh* I am currenly looking for a part time job... I need to get some money to pay my skating lessons fees... T.T Today I am kinda happy cause I learned 1 hour skating... Feeling good even Its tired... Damn!! Made me want to take 1 hour lesson next time... But I need lots of money for it... T.T RM520 per month If I want to take 1 hour per lesson... >.< GOD! I am JOBLESS now... How to pay RM520??? T.T
Somemore my dad getting silly nowaday... His temper getting bad... and This is what he will say when he is in bad mood... "Dont ask me for money anymore" "One day I am gonna leave this house(my house,my family) with my money" =.= So... I need to stand by now.. If one day he really STOP supporting me in money(for piano lesson) *sigh* Guys~ Any job for me??? T.T *poor me*
I might try to ask for the job at "pasar pagi"(market there)... Those work start at 6am- 1pm or something like that~ Its good for me I think XD ^^
Somemore my dad getting silly nowaday... His temper getting bad... and This is what he will say when he is in bad mood... "Dont ask me for money anymore" "One day I am gonna leave this house(my house,my family) with my money" =.= So... I need to stand by now.. If one day he really STOP supporting me in money(for piano lesson) *sigh* Guys~ Any job for me??? T.T *poor me*
I might try to ask for the job at "pasar pagi"(market there)... Those work start at 6am- 1pm or something like that~ Its good for me I think XD ^^
Monday, January 29, 2007
Sad Night
I am sad... Crying... For Wei Lun(taiwan artist)~ She just passed away... I just knew it from the newspaper and website... She got badly injured in the car accident on 27 Jan.. Right now I am thinking... Her friends must be sad n crying badly now... I totally can understand how it feel when one of friend leaving u in this way... I am so sad about this... She is still young~ 28 years old... and She is just starting to be more famous(although she is already popular in taiwan).. *sigh* Rest In Peace... Wei Lun...
Its made me think of my grand mother... She passed away about 6 years ago... Till now I still... Cannot forgive myself... I am such a bull shit to my grand mother... I love her very much... More than my own parent... Cause she is always be there when I am sad or alone... But when she fell in sick... Everything changed(is a very long story)... I did take good care of her at the first few time... I study to get know which is the best for her to eat(for healthy)... Which she shouldnt eat... But... Her memory become very bad.. Sooner she changed like a kid.. Is very weird for me.. and My mom started telling me how bad is she(last time she is kinda fierce on us)...I started feeling "hate" on her...So I stop visiting her... I pretend that I am busy at school... Or I just dont go inside the house to see her Even I am there... I still remember I heard grand mother said this to my mom... "Where is sum?? Why dont come n visit me one? Why she angry me?" I speechless... If u ask me why... I can tell u... I dunno why...
Until the day... Mom receive Uncle's phone call... He said grand mother Is weird.. Sleeping so long di and not moving... Is like... When I reach there... I saw grand ma... Not moving anymore... Yea.. Passed away... She is gone... Never come back... I cant even say a word to her anymore... I still owe her a sorry... She just leave like this... Left me behind.. Left me live with all the regret... I still not yet say sorry and take good care to her... and I just realise... Crying is useless... Cry how many days still... She wont be alive anymore... and Now... I am living with my regret... Sometime when I think about her... I will cry for a while.. Never end for these 6 years... Po~ I really miss u... Really miss u...
Share something with u guys.. The ambulans car... really neat and hot one... There is once... Grand ma faints.. U know how silly I am? I keep crying and keep crying cause I scare gran ma will go... From the time we send gran ma to hospital then move to another hospital with the ambulans... Non stop crying.. and Its only me sitting with gran ma inside the ambulans car... I stop crying only when I heard doctor said she is ok... Hahahaha.. How funny I am...
Its made me think of my grand mother... She passed away about 6 years ago... Till now I still... Cannot forgive myself... I am such a bull shit to my grand mother... I love her very much... More than my own parent... Cause she is always be there when I am sad or alone... But when she fell in sick... Everything changed(is a very long story)... I did take good care of her at the first few time... I study to get know which is the best for her to eat(for healthy)... Which she shouldnt eat... But... Her memory become very bad.. Sooner she changed like a kid.. Is very weird for me.. and My mom started telling me how bad is she(last time she is kinda fierce on us)...I started feeling "hate" on her...So I stop visiting her... I pretend that I am busy at school... Or I just dont go inside the house to see her Even I am there... I still remember I heard grand mother said this to my mom... "Where is sum?? Why dont come n visit me one? Why she angry me?" I speechless... If u ask me why... I can tell u... I dunno why...
Until the day... Mom receive Uncle's phone call... He said grand mother Is weird.. Sleeping so long di and not moving... Is like... When I reach there... I saw grand ma... Not moving anymore... Yea.. Passed away... She is gone... Never come back... I cant even say a word to her anymore... I still owe her a sorry... She just leave like this... Left me behind.. Left me live with all the regret... I still not yet say sorry and take good care to her... and I just realise... Crying is useless... Cry how many days still... She wont be alive anymore... and Now... I am living with my regret... Sometime when I think about her... I will cry for a while.. Never end for these 6 years... Po~ I really miss u... Really miss u...
Share something with u guys.. The ambulans car... really neat and hot one... There is once... Grand ma faints.. U know how silly I am? I keep crying and keep crying cause I scare gran ma will go... From the time we send gran ma to hospital then move to another hospital with the ambulans... Non stop crying.. and Its only me sitting with gran ma inside the ambulans car... I stop crying only when I heard doctor said she is ok... Hahahaha.. How funny I am...
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Bad Luck Days
T.T... I got bad luck since yesterday... It didnt seem like leaving me so soon(the bad luck)... *sigh* Know what happened on me?? Oh yea... I went skating... Everything I do, I fall.. Even the spin or jump that I am good in it... T.T... Almost lost axel... Double Salw? Dont ever think about it... *sigh* Back to the Chinese New Year performance practise part... I dunno Its me dreaming or I accidently step something... I suddenly fell n land on my knees nmy knees swollen... GOD!!! Imaging how PAIN its... But I still have to continue practise... T.T
Pain Pain n Pain! Go back with my swollen knees... I thought I am already bad luck enough... Nah.. Guess what had happen then? XD The car door.... Squash my finger!!!! I pain till I cried... Guys~ It really so "HIGH" for me... Painful non stop coming from the swollen knee n finger... "fucking high~"
After this two serious case... I seem like cant get out from getting hurt by things... =.=" Pick up phone call... feet accidently "kick" the corner of the table..Pain! Went out for dinner... The chair scratches my leg when I am moving it... *...* PAIN PAIN PAIN~
T.T My bb rub the medicine for me before I sleep... So now my knee is getting better.. At least not that swell anymore...
*sigh* Today my luck didnt seem like getting back to good one~ Just now.. I sit on the nail cutter =.=" (my butt T.T) and this afternoon... I touches the wall while the paint is still wet (yea my house is painting now)... *sigh*
What kind of bad luck is this T.T.. When will it ever end?
Pain Pain n Pain! Go back with my swollen knees... I thought I am already bad luck enough... Nah.. Guess what had happen then? XD The car door.... Squash my finger!!!! I pain till I cried... Guys~ It really so "HIGH" for me... Painful non stop coming from the swollen knee n finger... "fucking high~"
After this two serious case... I seem like cant get out from getting hurt by things... =.=" Pick up phone call... feet accidently "kick" the corner of the table..Pain! Went out for dinner... The chair scratches my leg when I am moving it... *...* PAIN PAIN PAIN~
T.T My bb rub the medicine for me before I sleep... So now my knee is getting better.. At least not that swell anymore...
*sigh* Today my luck didnt seem like getting back to good one~ Just now.. I sit on the nail cutter =.=" (my butt T.T) and this afternoon... I touches the wall while the paint is still wet (yea my house is painting now)... *sigh*
What kind of bad luck is this T.T.. When will it ever end?
Friday, January 19, 2007
Days
Hehehe... Being busy and lazy to post... :p Finally feel free to post something here... Ok... These few days nothing special happen... Went ice skating for 2 days and 2 days staying at home... Skip my piano class :( *sigh*
Staying home doing what? CakeRO dude~ XD... Finally they do a donor replacement... So I got donor stuffs back with my friend's receipt... ^^ Gonna tell him(my friend) that... Feel so happy when I got them back... LoL but I took a wrong colour's valkyrie helm =.="... Blue Black Wings + White Valkyrie Helm... How weird T.T... So I am waiting for next month's donor trades... Man I love chance card... Its fun to play... Hahahaha... Collect berries Pbs n Bbs at once... Almost every monster u killed and they drops it... v(^.^)v I made some new friends inside but I lost some too... *sigh* RO always made me so sad is true... T.T
About skating... I decided to continue.. Hahahaha... Know what???!!! I landed Double Salcow(just 2-3 times)... I Feel Good!! XD Axel too ^^ Finally got its ass back~ I Love Skating!!! ~again~ Hahahahhaha.... Flying Sit Spin n Flying Camel~ Wait For Me!!!! All Double Jump I am coming to get u!!!!
Staying home doing what? CakeRO dude~ XD... Finally they do a donor replacement... So I got donor stuffs back with my friend's receipt... ^^ Gonna tell him(my friend) that... Feel so happy when I got them back... LoL but I took a wrong colour's valkyrie helm =.="... Blue Black Wings + White Valkyrie Helm... How weird T.T... So I am waiting for next month's donor trades... Man I love chance card... Its fun to play... Hahahaha... Collect berries Pbs n Bbs at once... Almost every monster u killed and they drops it... v(^.^)v I made some new friends inside but I lost some too... *sigh* RO always made me so sad is true... T.T
About skating... I decided to continue.. Hahahaha... Know what???!!! I landed Double Salcow(just 2-3 times)... I Feel Good!! XD Axel too ^^ Finally got its ass back~ I Love Skating!!! ~again~ Hahahahhaha.... Flying Sit Spin n Flying Camel~ Wait For Me!!!! All Double Jump I am coming to get u!!!!
Monday, January 15, 2007
Skating Day
Since I already decided to join the performance on ice for chinese new year.. So this morning I woke up early and ready to go practise skating... Damn pissed off cause I got scold by the cashier(I lost my student card)... What calm me down? LOL.. Shopping!!! I bought my dream pants...Nike and Oreef... and a Puma T-shirt... Damn the T-shirt I bought is XL size >.<... T.T... So I become happy back with my new clothes... Simple right? XD LoL..
There is something funny happened to me when I am trying the new clothes in the fitting room... The fitting room door cut my toe and bleed... But I dont care and still trying a lots of clothes... LOL I start skating around 3pm... Try to get back all my skill.. GOD... I AM UBER HAPPY when I didnt fall on my first axel.. But today my spins seem a bit bad... Finally... My axel came back to me... Hehe.. Hii Ning said I can jump quite high... *shy* Sigh~ Always when I am about to give up... It came back to me... :(
Today I just ate twice... Breakfast and Dinner.. >.< UBER HUNGRY when I wanna take my lunch but wait until dinner time... Sigh~ BB so busy today :(
HOLY! U GUYS GUESS WHAT I FOUND... There is another "SALES" coming soon! >.< I WANNA BUY T.T Sigh~ Probally cannot buy anymore... Sad~
There is something funny happened to me when I am trying the new clothes in the fitting room... The fitting room door cut my toe and bleed... But I dont care and still trying a lots of clothes... LOL I start skating around 3pm... Try to get back all my skill.. GOD... I AM UBER HAPPY when I didnt fall on my first axel.. But today my spins seem a bit bad... Finally... My axel came back to me... Hehe.. Hii Ning said I can jump quite high... *shy* Sigh~ Always when I am about to give up... It came back to me... :(
Today I just ate twice... Breakfast and Dinner.. >.< UBER HUNGRY when I wanna take my lunch but wait until dinner time... Sigh~ BB so busy today :(
HOLY! U GUYS GUESS WHAT I FOUND... There is another "SALES" coming soon! >.< I WANNA BUY T.T Sigh~ Probally cannot buy anymore... Sad~
Sunday, January 14, 2007
New Day
Today consider a good day... Nothing bad happen... Slept at my bf's house last night.. So this morning we woke up early and go to work together... Today I sold a pair of RF2 skate(high lv skate) to a beginner skater... Cause our RF4(beginner skate) out of stock and since she like the RF2 too... So she bought the skate and some others skating stuffs... Hehe... v(^.^)v
LOL.. Today whole day we(me and my bf) are playing with my bf's brother's iguana... The iguana ran away yesterday and his brother cant find it(he is about to cry)... Till night when my bf got ice hockey training... It came out from somewhere and seem like got injured a bit(poor little thing).. I put it back to it's place.. Bought some vege for it(damn not fresh one.. damn giant cheat money).. We make it's house become nicer now(draw something and stick in XD).. So I hope it wont feel lonely and ran away again... Awww... Miss it so much( its staying in the shop) >.<
I decided to join my first performance for chinese new year on ice... ^^ Thanks Siau Chian... She accompany me in the performance... So I guess I have to start practise now... I love performance btw.. Haha!
LOL.. Today whole day we(me and my bf) are playing with my bf's brother's iguana... The iguana ran away yesterday and his brother cant find it(he is about to cry)... Till night when my bf got ice hockey training... It came out from somewhere and seem like got injured a bit(poor little thing).. I put it back to it's place.. Bought some vege for it(damn not fresh one.. damn giant cheat money).. We make it's house become nicer now(draw something and stick in XD).. So I hope it wont feel lonely and ran away again... Awww... Miss it so much( its staying in the shop) >.<
I decided to join my first performance for chinese new year on ice... ^^ Thanks Siau Chian... She accompany me in the performance... So I guess I have to start practise now... I love performance btw.. Haha!
Everything Over
Yea... Finally calm down from being hyper active... Everything is over now... I gave up my friendship(because of my own's problem)...(Poor them have to take my bad temper... I am really sorry)... Giving up my family(might move to my bf's house)... I am tired now... I am thinking should I give up my piano too since my piano at my house and I cant practise anymore... *sigh* I am still thinking... Why all this happen to me? Why cant I have a happy family? huh?
I wish I never grow up.. Then I dont have to think so much... and I still remember my family quite happy that time even we are a bit poor... But every week we have the family day... Is happy.. But everything gone when I grow up and dad start being ricer a bit... Now... His car is his everything... I still remember there is once.. I scratch his car accidently but also cut my hand.. Guess what happen? My hand is bleeding but he scold me because of that scratches... Until now still... Hahaha... Isnt it funny? I am his daughter but just not important than a car..
Mom? Hahahahahaha... Mom~ A good one.... Really speechless about this mom... A mom that always throw her daughter alone at home since I am in secondary school... ^^ Isnt it cool? :p Nope.. She never work after married with my dad... Mom oh mom... I wanna ask... Why u always keep saying "no" to me? As sample : "Mom wanna go shopping with me?" "NO" "Mom can u bring me out with u?" "NO" "Mom can I learn singing?" "NO"... Ok fine... If ur "friends" asked : "Lets go shopping." "YES Of COURSE" "Lets bla bla bla" "SURE WHY NOT"... =.=" See... Being a daughter like this... I am really sucked.. and failed.. Nvm.. Everything will be over now...
I am just too stupid last time... Take them as my everything even they dont even give a damn about me... So I decided to kick them out of my life... I dont want to see them anymore... Wont care about them anymore... Start spending my new life with my bb... Hope it wont be fail again(I tried many times about moving to bf house but always fail cause I will miss them much and went back at the end)... We are saving money for our future.. Will get marry one day...
Right now I am worry about my net friend jun.. Jun.. Dont go before I go.. I am sure U are not "cham" than me... If u know my past.. I have a horrible past.. Anything just talk to me k?
I wish I never grow up.. Then I dont have to think so much... and I still remember my family quite happy that time even we are a bit poor... But every week we have the family day... Is happy.. But everything gone when I grow up and dad start being ricer a bit... Now... His car is his everything... I still remember there is once.. I scratch his car accidently but also cut my hand.. Guess what happen? My hand is bleeding but he scold me because of that scratches... Until now still... Hahaha... Isnt it funny? I am his daughter but just not important than a car..
Mom? Hahahahahaha... Mom~ A good one.... Really speechless about this mom... A mom that always throw her daughter alone at home since I am in secondary school... ^^ Isnt it cool? :p Nope.. She never work after married with my dad... Mom oh mom... I wanna ask... Why u always keep saying "no" to me? As sample : "Mom wanna go shopping with me?" "NO" "Mom can u bring me out with u?" "NO" "Mom can I learn singing?" "NO"... Ok fine... If ur "friends" asked : "Lets go shopping." "YES Of COURSE" "Lets bla bla bla" "SURE WHY NOT"... =.=" See... Being a daughter like this... I am really sucked.. and failed.. Nvm.. Everything will be over now...
I am just too stupid last time... Take them as my everything even they dont even give a damn about me... So I decided to kick them out of my life... I dont want to see them anymore... Wont care about them anymore... Start spending my new life with my bb... Hope it wont be fail again(I tried many times about moving to bf house but always fail cause I will miss them much and went back at the end)... We are saving money for our future.. Will get marry one day...
Right now I am worry about my net friend jun.. Jun.. Dont go before I go.. I am sure U are not "cham" than me... If u know my past.. I have a horrible past.. Anything just talk to me k?
Saturday, January 13, 2007
A Great Day
LOL... What a Good Day today... I pissed them off (guess so) Why? Oh.. Just because I put my fucking temper on them.. Hahaha... I am SO HAPPY TODAY... XD... Fucking family sucked as usual... Me? Bitch as usual... Great~ Everything just like normal.. I am still not dead yet.. same as them... Oh yea.. Tomorow is my "fake" mom's birthday.. Bitch.. Happy Birthday! XD .. Saw my "blind" dad just now... Why blind? Cause he didnt "see" me at all.. GREAT !! HAHA!! SO Great~ *ho*
I am so hyper active now.. Guess there is no others SHIT to share today.. U guys should be happy cause no need to read more "SHIT" from me.. Cheer~
I am so hyper active now.. Guess there is no others SHIT to share today.. U guys should be happy cause no need to read more "SHIT" from me.. Cheer~
I'm Tired
Tired.. I Am So tired.. About everything..
Today is a "very" bad day for me.. Woke up - bored... Whole afternoon - bored 2... Got dinner at 8pm.. But my "dad" are late.. He got back home at 7pm BUT he said he gonna go wash his car first(stupid car I hate it).. So.. HE IS LATE.. and HE made himself become late.. But he just put his "f**king bad temper" on me.. Scold me for such a STUPID thing.. Just because I go inside the car with the same door like my brother.. Then he start scolding me... "What for the other door stand for if u all just using 1 door"... SO.. ITS ME AGAIN... GOOD.. Just scold me u JERK.. Since I am still taking and spending UR money.. So I cant blame about it... Just Enjoy UR SCOLD.. Happy Now? =.= .....
An accident just happened on my mom(I am not beside)... Almost fly out of her motobike... Cause a car(Kancil) beside her suddenly turn left while my mom still going straight... So imaging what happen then... My mom lost control.. Luckily didnt fall down(Since my mom holding the bike tightly).. But bang another car which is waiting to for turning(Honda).. and that Kancil's driver(girl) thought wanna settle this with her RM50... (=.= t).. Its not about money dude... U almost kill my mom.. and U made my mom bang on the Honda car le...So at the end.. The Honda's driver just request RM200 as the repair fees(from Kancil driver of course).. Then he gave my mom RM50 (he is consider good and understanding)... My mom seem like nothing(no injured).. Just lost her voice because of scolding =.="
Back to the dinner part... After got scold by him... I trying to ignore it... But mood become not that good already... So I just want to EAT all I can in the dinner... Its a karaoke dinner room , so my mom "asked" me to sing some songs... K then.. Choose Song... When I am about to sing... Mom "asked" me to eat not sing... SHIT! WTH! Made me feel like wanna start singing then stop me... GREAT! MOM U SO GREAT! Always stopping me... I am thinking... Am I ur "real" daughter? huh? I never see a mother that always stop their child's dream.. Like skating... keep asking me not to skate.. Singing.. dont allow me to learn and said its a wasting of money... Piano.. YES SHE ASKED ME TO STOP LAST TIME... ARE U MY REAL MOM? OR U JUST PICK ME UP AT THE "LAM SAP TONG"? *Speechless about them*
I feel myself is just like... Have family = Dont have family... Parents see me as NOTHING(no kidding,Its all depends on their mood)... Brothers just doing their own stuff(eldest bro got his gf..youngest bro got his brunch of friends)... Just a few friends beside(those always willing to talk to me and listen to me).. OH YEA.. The only that WONT left me behind was my BB.. T.T I guess I already die few years ago(suicide) if no him.. No kidding guys.. I have record(i am not proud of it)... Few times suicide just at the end I am still too afraid of die.. I ate medicines... Cut my hands(not too deep but still its bleeding).. I know maybe I have psychology problem(no kidding)... Right now I am really tired... Not those "sleepy" tired.. Tired from my heart.. For my life... For everything... I miss my gran ma so much.. Yes.. So much.. T.T
What can be done? My life just suck.. I am so Tired...
Today is a "very" bad day for me.. Woke up - bored... Whole afternoon - bored 2... Got dinner at 8pm.. But my "dad" are late.. He got back home at 7pm BUT he said he gonna go wash his car first(stupid car I hate it).. So.. HE IS LATE.. and HE made himself become late.. But he just put his "f**king bad temper" on me.. Scold me for such a STUPID thing.. Just because I go inside the car with the same door like my brother.. Then he start scolding me... "What for the other door stand for if u all just using 1 door"... SO.. ITS ME AGAIN... GOOD.. Just scold me u JERK.. Since I am still taking and spending UR money.. So I cant blame about it... Just Enjoy UR SCOLD.. Happy Now? =.= .....
An accident just happened on my mom(I am not beside)... Almost fly out of her motobike... Cause a car(Kancil) beside her suddenly turn left while my mom still going straight... So imaging what happen then... My mom lost control.. Luckily didnt fall down(Since my mom holding the bike tightly).. But bang another car which is waiting to for turning(Honda).. and that Kancil's driver(girl) thought wanna settle this with her RM50... (=.= t).. Its not about money dude... U almost kill my mom.. and U made my mom bang on the Honda car le...So at the end.. The Honda's driver just request RM200 as the repair fees(from Kancil driver of course).. Then he gave my mom RM50 (he is consider good and understanding)... My mom seem like nothing(no injured).. Just lost her voice because of scolding =.="
Back to the dinner part... After got scold by him... I trying to ignore it... But mood become not that good already... So I just want to EAT all I can in the dinner... Its a karaoke dinner room , so my mom "asked" me to sing some songs... K then.. Choose Song... When I am about to sing... Mom "asked" me to eat not sing... SHIT! WTH! Made me feel like wanna start singing then stop me... GREAT! MOM U SO GREAT! Always stopping me... I am thinking... Am I ur "real" daughter? huh? I never see a mother that always stop their child's dream.. Like skating... keep asking me not to skate.. Singing.. dont allow me to learn and said its a wasting of money... Piano.. YES SHE ASKED ME TO STOP LAST TIME... ARE U MY REAL MOM? OR U JUST PICK ME UP AT THE "LAM SAP TONG"? *Speechless about them*
I feel myself is just like... Have family = Dont have family... Parents see me as NOTHING(no kidding,Its all depends on their mood)... Brothers just doing their own stuff(eldest bro got his gf..youngest bro got his brunch of friends)... Just a few friends beside(those always willing to talk to me and listen to me).. OH YEA.. The only that WONT left me behind was my BB.. T.T I guess I already die few years ago(suicide) if no him.. No kidding guys.. I have record(i am not proud of it)... Few times suicide just at the end I am still too afraid of die.. I ate medicines... Cut my hands(not too deep but still its bleeding).. I know maybe I have psychology problem(no kidding)... Right now I am really tired... Not those "sleepy" tired.. Tired from my heart.. For my life... For everything... I miss my gran ma so much.. Yes.. So much.. T.T
What can be done? My life just suck.. I am so Tired...
Thursday, January 11, 2007
Mood and Me
Yea.. I deleted the post about "My Damn Brother".. He is still my brother anyway... Haha.. Although he is really that bad to me.. But.. Sigh~ Who know what will happen tomorrow? Hehehe.. I am so emo.. All depend on my mood.. XD
Just got back home from Supper at Station 1.. Yea.. Again =.="...DIET SUM DIET!.. (x.x)...Going to sleep soon cause tomorrow have to wake at 8am( bring my gran pa go check up )..By the way.. SO HAPPY my bb came and stay at my house today ^^.. <3
What I did today? Nothing much.. Piano class today.. I play as "bad" as usual =.="..Sigh~ Should practise more.. Oh yea.. I found another person who LOVE singing just like me...Kei...She is good in singing too(so envy >.<)... Especially at the part which need to sing high key one.. I am like.. "OMG!!! Awsome!" So I go back home a bit late.. :p
Then...Online, Chatting a bit..When I was pissed, my gor(online gor ^^) trying to make me happy back... Thanks gor ^^..I found a way to make myself calm...Blogging.. Feel much much better.. I like to read others' blog too...I read veron's blog.. Sorry to hear that he got an accident(glad he is ok).. Now I know why they change their plan on last 2 night.. Sorry that I did blame a bit about u guys T.T... *slap myself*
Today mom and dad have some fight... Dad dont like mom always go out singing until so late..Dad sick already(so his mood seem a bit bad).. :(Honestly I dont really like my mom every night(almost) go sing until so late... 1st -- Its dangerous nowaday for being outside at midnight(about 1am) 2nd -- My mom go there not really for sing but just keep chatting with others( I always see she chat with other men =.=" ) I trust my mom.. BUT.. It doesnt look that good since she is a married woman( 1 woman chatting with a table of men)... Sigh~ and I am sure Dad will be pissed if he saw it... Still... Sigh~
Ok.. I am really tired now.. Good night everyone.. Sweet Dreams.. I probally will~ XD *sweet dreaming* *slur*
Just got back home from Supper at Station 1.. Yea.. Again =.="...DIET SUM DIET!.. (x.x)...Going to sleep soon cause tomorrow have to wake at 8am( bring my gran pa go check up )..By the way.. SO HAPPY my bb came and stay at my house today ^^.. <3
What I did today? Nothing much.. Piano class today.. I play as "bad" as usual =.="..Sigh~ Should practise more.. Oh yea.. I found another person who LOVE singing just like me...Kei...She is good in singing too(so envy >.<)... Especially at the part which need to sing high key one.. I am like.. "OMG!!! Awsome!" So I go back home a bit late.. :p
Then...Online, Chatting a bit..When I was pissed, my gor(online gor ^^) trying to make me happy back... Thanks gor ^^..I found a way to make myself calm...Blogging.. Feel much much better.. I like to read others' blog too...I read veron's blog.. Sorry to hear that he got an accident(glad he is ok).. Now I know why they change their plan on last 2 night.. Sorry that I did blame a bit about u guys T.T... *slap myself*
Today mom and dad have some fight... Dad dont like mom always go out singing until so late..Dad sick already(so his mood seem a bit bad).. :(Honestly I dont really like my mom every night(almost) go sing until so late... 1st -- Its dangerous nowaday for being outside at midnight(about 1am) 2nd -- My mom go there not really for sing but just keep chatting with others( I always see she chat with other men =.=" ) I trust my mom.. BUT.. It doesnt look that good since she is a married woman( 1 woman chatting with a table of men)... Sigh~ and I am sure Dad will be pissed if he saw it... Still... Sigh~
Ok.. I am really tired now.. Good night everyone.. Sweet Dreams.. I probally will~ XD *sweet dreaming* *slur*
Tuesday, January 9, 2007
Songs and Me
Yo.. Is me again ^^... I am going to bath soon... Cause the bath room now so smelly(my mom smoke just now >.<)... Just finish dancing(simply dance) that made me sweating now... Yea as what I said yesterday I am on DIET.. :p... Today I woke up a bit late... 2pm... I ate instant noodles( T.T )... Log in to Cake for a moment... Saw Kenny.. Talking about that "sggirls" website... I am sure some of u guys know what is that website about... =.="
Today I did practise my piano... Exam pieces( Some bored classical songs u probally never heard before )... Scales( lol my finges >.< )... I play back some old popular songs( long time didnt play so it sound a bit... *shy*)... Poor neighbours.. XD... After piano , I practise singing(simply sing)... LOL.... My neighbours sure HATE me... :p Sorry... Hahahahha...
SONGS.... I LOVE SONGS(those nice one ^^).... Guys.. PENNY Dai(spell wrongly?) SO DAMN DAMN DAMN GOOD... I am in LOVE with her songs... iPenny's album... Go download if u still dont have it... Something I must remind U guys... ALL her song... Composer is herself( I bow her )... and MOST of them so nice to hear...(MARRY ME PENNY although i am not a guy) Everytime I cry when I watch her "Chuang Wai" 's mv( go download if u wanna know what is it about )... Beside Penny's songs... There are many others singers'songs that I love... "Li Shen Jei".. In love with his "Angel"... Is hard to list all of them here... Cause there are many many more songs that I love... Hahaha...
Gonna take my dinner soon... Sigh~ Mom cook "long bean rice" for us... So Bored.. She is getting lazy now... Not even make some soup for us... Sigh~ Maybe I am not taking dinner tonight... Since I am not that hungry now... Wait for Supper :( My honey will be busy these 2 days... Cant see him :( If not he will buy something nice for me to eat... Sigh~ I wonder what should I do tonight... Chatting? Gaming? Ah.. Maybe go out singing with my mom... ^^ Ok... Gonna go bath now... Sticky... Smelly... >.< ... Thanks for reading... Sayonana...
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Its 7 36pm now... Just ate dinner.. Not long bean rice but sweet and sour pork rice(mom bought from outside for me)... Feel so full now... But I just ate half of that...Talk with my mom just now... About her coming soon birthday party.. Feel so angry about her "friends"... For me.. They are jerks.. U know why I said that?
Oh yea.. My mom's birthday is on Jan.. But they celebrate it at Dec(cause another aunt's birthday was at Dec)...So my mom feel like wanna make a simple party at Jan.. Invite them.. But they thought my mom invite them because want them to give present or sponsor my mom about those foods "again"(cause Dec they already treat my mom)...So they start saying this SHITs to hurt my mom... "Now u say no need we pay, But later u sure want us to pay one." A BITCH said( I dont care if she is older and i shouldnt call her bitch.Who hurt my mom who = bitch.) I am so ANGRY when my mom told me about this... I SPONSOR my mom on her party.. I wanna see if that BITCH gonna be bitching again.. I WILL SLAP her straight away.. But my mom told me they said they dont really want to go since already celebrate on Dec... For me... I DONT Give a DAMN if they are going or not... Just want my mom happy..
About that bitch... Her mouth always full of SHITs(no kidding)...Last time when I got my driving licence.. She said that I will get accident.. ( t=.=t ) NAH! I am sure.. I wont die before she die... So... Peace...
Ok.. Currently I am quite angry now...Will be calm soon... Thanks for reading...
Today I did practise my piano... Exam pieces( Some bored classical songs u probally never heard before )... Scales( lol my finges >.< )... I play back some old popular songs( long time didnt play so it sound a bit... *shy*)... Poor neighbours.. XD... After piano , I practise singing(simply sing)... LOL.... My neighbours sure HATE me... :p Sorry... Hahahahha...
SONGS.... I LOVE SONGS(those nice one ^^).... Guys.. PENNY Dai(spell wrongly?) SO DAMN DAMN DAMN GOOD... I am in LOVE with her songs... iPenny's album... Go download if u still dont have it... Something I must remind U guys... ALL her song... Composer is herself( I bow her )... and MOST of them so nice to hear...(MARRY ME PENNY although i am not a guy) Everytime I cry when I watch her "Chuang Wai" 's mv( go download if u wanna know what is it about )... Beside Penny's songs... There are many others singers'songs that I love... "Li Shen Jei".. In love with his "Angel"... Is hard to list all of them here... Cause there are many many more songs that I love... Hahaha...
Gonna take my dinner soon... Sigh~ Mom cook "long bean rice" for us... So Bored.. She is getting lazy now... Not even make some soup for us... Sigh~ Maybe I am not taking dinner tonight... Since I am not that hungry now... Wait for Supper :( My honey will be busy these 2 days... Cant see him :( If not he will buy something nice for me to eat... Sigh~ I wonder what should I do tonight... Chatting? Gaming? Ah.. Maybe go out singing with my mom... ^^ Ok... Gonna go bath now... Sticky... Smelly... >.< ... Thanks for reading... Sayonana...
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Its 7 36pm now... Just ate dinner.. Not long bean rice but sweet and sour pork rice(mom bought from outside for me)... Feel so full now... But I just ate half of that...Talk with my mom just now... About her coming soon birthday party.. Feel so angry about her "friends"... For me.. They are jerks.. U know why I said that?
Oh yea.. My mom's birthday is on Jan.. But they celebrate it at Dec(cause another aunt's birthday was at Dec)...So my mom feel like wanna make a simple party at Jan.. Invite them.. But they thought my mom invite them because want them to give present or sponsor my mom about those foods "again"(cause Dec they already treat my mom)...So they start saying this SHITs to hurt my mom... "Now u say no need we pay, But later u sure want us to pay one." A BITCH said( I dont care if she is older and i shouldnt call her bitch.Who hurt my mom who = bitch.) I am so ANGRY when my mom told me about this... I SPONSOR my mom on her party.. I wanna see if that BITCH gonna be bitching again.. I WILL SLAP her straight away.. But my mom told me they said they dont really want to go since already celebrate on Dec... For me... I DONT Give a DAMN if they are going or not... Just want my mom happy..
About that bitch... Her mouth always full of SHITs(no kidding)...Last time when I got my driving licence.. She said that I will get accident.. ( t=.=t ) NAH! I am sure.. I wont die before she die... So... Peace...
Ok.. Currently I am quite angry now...Will be calm soon... Thanks for reading...
Monday, January 8, 2007
Foods and Diet
:( ... Currently On Diet... But I cant STOP eating.. Breakfast.. Lunch... High Tea..Dinner...and SUPPER... So u guys think... Will I success to make myself slim down?? I doubt it... Ok... Today I woke at about 1pm...Last night I slept at about 6am after waking my damn brother up... I so good? Nah... I am forced to wake him up... Cause his stupid damn alarm wont let me sleep... My BB (Elwin) woke up at about 10/11 am (I think) cause he need to go work... He said this softly beside my ear " BB, I go work la..." My answer was "Oh"/"Ah"(forgot)... I remember that he said twice about he is going to work... =.=" "....."
After taking my breakfast ( curry noodles ) , I log in to CakeRO..Yea I went back to CakeRO... Hahahaha... Sitting inside prontera... Doing nothing... OH Yea... I went into the PVP(Player VS Player) room just now... How brave I am... With my baby novice (hp= 107)...Sitting with another baby novice... Guess what had happen? LOL... We both got killed by a meteor assault(actually he dont mean to kill us but others)...Swt... Sometime I feel RO is really FUNNY...
Today damn hot le... I feel no mood to practise my piano( I know I will be dead at the exam )... So I just sitting inside my air con room( Hahahahaha I start feeling myself lucky XD ) looking for something to do lo... Chatting , Gaming , Searching Webs , Listening to music , SINGING (for myself) and Thinking... Maybe taking a nap later... OH YEA... and BLOGGING... I START LOVING IT... *muacckkk* XD... GG After this I will look forward to PHUAH's new post...
Tonight I think I will go out to MOMO yamcha( Drink Tea ) LOL.... Asking Phuah now if he want to join us... Haih~ Must bring my "Sister" along de ma... Who is my sister? "MISS Phuah" la... Hahahahahhahahahaha... OMG!!!! I will get KILL... RUN!!!!!!
Sigh~ Its 1 am now...Guess what... They changed the plan... From MOMO become Asia Cafe... I know Momo maybe too far for them to come.. But Asia Cafe is not near for me... Somemore I already asked my bb to come to my place( thought going to Momo one ).. 30 minute driving from pyramid to my house(Ampang)...then If i join them at Asia Cafe...need another 30 minute driving to be there... Today he cant stay at my house(last night already did)...So he have to send me back first then only he can go back(Rawang)...GOD.. Althought I really want to join them.. But I really dont want my bb to drive so long la(driving is not that FUN le)...So I didnt join them... End up I become SO DOWN n UPSET...Haih~ Dont ask me why...
Anyway.. Everything is fine now.. I am going out with my bb later.. cause i am SUPER HUNGRY now...SUPPER time.. Haih~ I am still on diet.. Eat first ba.. Tomolo do more SIT UP lo.. =.=" Wonder what they doing over there.. Finish eating? Playing Dai De?
After taking my breakfast ( curry noodles ) , I log in to CakeRO..Yea I went back to CakeRO... Hahahaha... Sitting inside prontera... Doing nothing... OH Yea... I went into the PVP(Player VS Player) room just now... How brave I am... With my baby novice (hp= 107)...Sitting with another baby novice... Guess what had happen? LOL... We both got killed by a meteor assault(actually he dont mean to kill us but others)...Swt... Sometime I feel RO is really FUNNY...
Today damn hot le... I feel no mood to practise my piano( I know I will be dead at the exam )... So I just sitting inside my air con room( Hahahahaha I start feeling myself lucky XD ) looking for something to do lo... Chatting , Gaming , Searching Webs , Listening to music , SINGING (for myself) and Thinking... Maybe taking a nap later... OH YEA... and BLOGGING... I START LOVING IT... *muacckkk* XD... GG After this I will look forward to PHUAH's new post...
Tonight I think I will go out to MOMO yamcha( Drink Tea ) LOL.... Asking Phuah now if he want to join us... Haih~ Must bring my "Sister" along de ma... Who is my sister? "MISS Phuah" la... Hahahahahhahahahaha... OMG!!!! I will get KILL... RUN!!!!!!
Sigh~ Its 1 am now...Guess what... They changed the plan... From MOMO become Asia Cafe... I know Momo maybe too far for them to come.. But Asia Cafe is not near for me... Somemore I already asked my bb to come to my place( thought going to Momo one ).. 30 minute driving from pyramid to my house(Ampang)...then If i join them at Asia Cafe...need another 30 minute driving to be there... Today he cant stay at my house(last night already did)...So he have to send me back first then only he can go back(Rawang)...GOD.. Althought I really want to join them.. But I really dont want my bb to drive so long la(driving is not that FUN le)...So I didnt join them... End up I become SO DOWN n UPSET...Haih~ Dont ask me why...
Anyway.. Everything is fine now.. I am going out with my bb later.. cause i am SUPER HUNGRY now...SUPPER time.. Haih~ I am still on diet.. Eat first ba.. Tomolo do more SIT UP lo.. =.=" Wonder what they doing over there.. Finish eating? Playing Dai De?
Sunday, January 7, 2007
My 2007
I just decided to start my very first bloggie here... Since my english not too good... Hope u guys still can understand what i writing about... I got many words to say but just dunno how to start and where to start it...
Good bye my 2006... and Welcome my 2007... Me and my bb(Elwin) already been together for 4 years... and this year the 5th year... Most of my friends know that how the person I am... Its not that good to be my bf... Cause I am bad... Bad Temper... Sorry BB... For those who dunno I am an emo person... Now u know it... and I am a very sensitive person... My bf said this is because I think too much... Yea.. Maybe.. I am too care about how people think about me... I feel very bad when I know someone hate me or dislike me... So Its not that good to be my friends too... I want some change... I wanna stop thinking these much... Then my life will be much better... Haih~
What bad things happen on me in Year 2006? ermm... Relationship and Friendship problem.. XD Actually all the problem just come from me... Why? Because I think too much... =.=" Oh yea... My family treat me a bit better now... Just except my youngest brother... He always made me feel like either kill him or kill myself... >:\ Beside these, I found myself fell in love with shopping... CANT STOP IT... So I am BANKRUPT now... I can see that my bb also... Sorry T.T.... But I bought so many clothes that made me so HAPPY... Hahahaha... and I swear that I wont buy Esprit anymore... Its totally different between before wash and after washing it... I am in love with Pop Soda, Baleno, Samuei and Kevin and P & CO's clothes... Price ok and so comfortable... ^^ By the way... I stop shopping now.. Cause Sales end.. All the price back to normal.. Oh yea.. But Top Shop and MNG still got 50% sales... XD Not my style... and the price also @.@...
What good things happen le... Love doing bussiness with my BB.. Selling Skates lo.. Almost sold out all the RF4 (beginner skates) ^^... Earn some pocket money also... hahaha... and I just came back from a genting trip with bb and Phuah at 4 Jan - 5 Jan... Quite fun... Just phuah dont play with us on Roller Coaster n some others... Took many new pics... ^^ Post them on friendster already... Oh yea... I just realise Bak Kut Tea there quite nice to eat... XD Ate twice... :p and Steamboat at the outdoor theme park there... Really YUCK... Outside hot but inside still freezing.. >.< Made me feel like wanna vomit.. Damn.. We bought many food lo.. hehe.. Cannot finish them...
Ermm.... Actually I already wasted many years for doing nothing... I dunno if this year still the same thing for me... All I know now is.. I got grade 6 piano exam at August... Wish me luck... and I quit skating this year... Thinking should I learn singing or not... I Really Love It.. But my mom dont allow me to... She said I wasting money only... Sigh~ So what can I do? I also dunno... Work? Nah.. Not I dont want to... I cant work now... I still have to practise my piano.... Isnt it? So I just sitting here... and wait... For what? For my LUCK to come la... Hahahahaha....
Good bye my 2006... and Welcome my 2007... Me and my bb(Elwin) already been together for 4 years... and this year the 5th year... Most of my friends know that how the person I am... Its not that good to be my bf... Cause I am bad... Bad Temper... Sorry BB... For those who dunno I am an emo person... Now u know it... and I am a very sensitive person... My bf said this is because I think too much... Yea.. Maybe.. I am too care about how people think about me... I feel very bad when I know someone hate me or dislike me... So Its not that good to be my friends too... I want some change... I wanna stop thinking these much... Then my life will be much better... Haih~
What bad things happen on me in Year 2006? ermm... Relationship and Friendship problem.. XD Actually all the problem just come from me... Why? Because I think too much... =.=" Oh yea... My family treat me a bit better now... Just except my youngest brother... He always made me feel like either kill him or kill myself... >:\ Beside these, I found myself fell in love with shopping... CANT STOP IT... So I am BANKRUPT now... I can see that my bb also... Sorry T.T.... But I bought so many clothes that made me so HAPPY... Hahahaha... and I swear that I wont buy Esprit anymore... Its totally different between before wash and after washing it... I am in love with Pop Soda, Baleno, Samuei and Kevin and P & CO's clothes... Price ok and so comfortable... ^^ By the way... I stop shopping now.. Cause Sales end.. All the price back to normal.. Oh yea.. But Top Shop and MNG still got 50% sales... XD Not my style... and the price also @.@...
What good things happen le... Love doing bussiness with my BB.. Selling Skates lo.. Almost sold out all the RF4 (beginner skates) ^^... Earn some pocket money also... hahaha... and I just came back from a genting trip with bb and Phuah at 4 Jan - 5 Jan... Quite fun... Just phuah dont play with us on Roller Coaster n some others... Took many new pics... ^^ Post them on friendster already... Oh yea... I just realise Bak Kut Tea there quite nice to eat... XD Ate twice... :p and Steamboat at the outdoor theme park there... Really YUCK... Outside hot but inside still freezing.. >.< Made me feel like wanna vomit.. Damn.. We bought many food lo.. hehe.. Cannot finish them...
Ermm.... Actually I already wasted many years for doing nothing... I dunno if this year still the same thing for me... All I know now is.. I got grade 6 piano exam at August... Wish me luck... and I quit skating this year... Thinking should I learn singing or not... I Really Love It.. But my mom dont allow me to... She said I wasting money only... Sigh~ So what can I do? I also dunno... Work? Nah.. Not I dont want to... I cant work now... I still have to practise my piano.... Isnt it? So I just sitting here... and wait... For what? For my LUCK to come la... Hahahahaha....
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