My songs

Recently I found myself in love with composing songs... and I just realise Its not easy at all... I accept my friends' comments... So I keep on changing the rhythm n lyrics... But I dunno If its better now... Honestly... Its kinda hard for me to accept comments... When I got the bad comments... I will be sad for sure(Well many times)... The first song I compose.. Not many of them(my friends) seem to be loving it.. :( Cept Kwan... ^^ She like the lyrics.. Thanks ^^ and I feel like dont want to change the first song(Dui Bu Qi) anymore... I feel like Its already lost the very first rhythm I compose last time... T.T

Last night.. I slept at 5am... Why? Because song idea suddenly come to me... I made another new song without midi... "Qi Ji" Oh god! I am so happy about the new one... The first person I sent it to.. He said he love it.. But.. His words hurt me a lot.. He said that I should let others to sing the song I compose... I know where is my singing problem... Voice viberation(dunno if I spell it wrong)... I cant control it well... That is why I wanna learn singing.. But today when I ask my mom to bring me look for a teacher... U guys guess what the fucking words she said? "Insane.. Dont waste the money.." How selfish she is! She said if I am "Lucky" to find a teacher... Then I have to drive there and she is not fetching me(I almost bang people's car last time.. now I dont really dare to drive)

Till the end.. I still feel like I wanna sing back the songs I made.. I wasted my bed time to make those.. I love singing that is why I compose.. So.. My songs.. I will sing them myself... and.. I HATE U MOM!