Goodbye 2008, and Welcome 2009

Wow! Its already 27 dec.. Times go really fast.. Its just like how I blink my eyes... *Blink Blink*
I feel myself is like almost forget how to use english... Since I join the current team.. I am not blaming them actually.. I do love them and appreciate the lessons they gave to me... I earn a lots.. Well... I dont mean in materials... I earn the most priceless stuff of the world... that is call...
Love.. <3 Love between friends.. Love between partner.. between the works...

Thank you.. for all those who willing to give me a hand when I am down... I been get through
a hard time of my life.. Life challenge.. Thats how others call it.. I made up my mind about leaving the company.. then changed my mind and stay.. Until now.. When everything is about
to go smoothly.. I did another choice.. I applied to switch team... Actually I was quite "not sure"
at the beginning.. Quote someone's words "Everything can be learn, just depend on you. You dareto take this challenge or not." End up.. I DARE him.. =.=

Sorry.. really sorry to my current bro(my leader).. I know I may disappointed you once again
on what I choose.. Dont misunderstanding me.. I do love the team a lot.. and I dont have a problem to work with you.. We always in a good team works isnt it? Haha.. But as I told u before... There is my dream... English.. I always want it... Actually my first target when I interview here.. Is english team.. Just too bad cause my english havent reach there to be a part
of their family... Now either =.=.. BUT.. My new bro(sooner my new leader) said he willing to
teach me..

Recent Life

Well... Nothing much... Work then Off day then Work again...
Just learn about not to hear not to see.. and Feel nothing about all of them now..
No hard feeling or whatever they think.. Everything back to normal..
Not so serious about the job sometime... Depend on my mood... For example..
Today I went there.. On the game.. Sit sit... Ermm and then... "Comic!"
Wakakakakaka... http://www.5kmh.com/ nice website for chinese comics... But off course...
When those "higher position" ppl come to my place... Have to switch back and
pretend a bit... ^.^v Am I good enough huh? :D

Sometime keep quiet and much much better than you talk too much... At least u can
stay away from the war or whatever they called it.. Now I wish that... Everything of
mine go smoothly and "peacely"(do they even have this word? Grr whatever)...
7am work 4pm home~ Dont be too early there and dont stay up late... Go at 7am then wait
for 4pm to come(so that I can go home!!).. Try not to comment too much on others
department's stuffs... Even if you "accidently" heard "something"... Pretend that you never
hear that.. and Pray to forget it asap...

About my diet plan... Was very good at the first 3 days... I control well on what I should eat...
and exercise... But for now... After 1 week or 2... T.T My bad temper is back... Cause stopping
myself from those delicious food... T.T aihz... So now I let myself and my bb eat a bit more...
At least make myself feel happier... T.T Felt that I really get tired easily nowaday... Not
enough food taken gua... Aihz... But Its making me crazy when I saw someone that used to be
double of my size at 4 month ago... Now... T.T skinny than me le... aihz... How she do that?
And when I saw that she eat the YUMMY secret recipe cheese cake IN FRONT of me...
I went mad le... Aihz... What a life~

Friendship Forever

27 oct 08 , Me , bb ,monkey and cyrus went to genting highland for our day trip there....
We took many pictures and really having fun there... There is one picture we took is about,
put our "last" fingers together... Hahaha... I just write out some words to describe that picture....

"There is a chain that tied up between you and me, Wish that our friendship could "last" forever!"

Hehe... Does it sound cool? I am loving it.. ^.^ Although nowaday I might feel lonely on my
morning shift cause you guys are not around... But I will always miss you guys and think
about our happy stuffs to make myself stay away from the loneliness, or sadness....

For those that think they could really make me quit... Get off?? Anyway... I would take it
as a life challenge... So.. Just "BRING IT ON" !

t(-.-t) (t-.-)t

Relationship Between You ,Me,He,She and Them

Relationship between each others... Sometime good and sometime "down".... I dunno how to describe the whole things... For the moment.. I feel empty... I dunno If its I think too much or whatever.. But I knew there is something happened... Between us...

Why must reality change the personality of each of them? Well.. Maybe not all... But things are like getting complicated and I am getting tired on it... Sometime I feel warm... but I sometime i feel like I have been left out from them... T.T Why is it?

Until now.. I still appreciate the friendship between you and me...(You guys should know who you are) and For those that really hurt me a lot... I guess I already stop myself from trusting them so much now.. But sometime I still cant control myself from thinking... "Are you angry with me?" "Am I doing wrong?" "Am I not good enough to be your best friend?"

And so Sorry about what happened last night... I dont mean to do that... and Dont ask me why... Its already a past tense... I dont wish to mention again.. Not a big deal anyway... But I feel something wrong with you... I wish my feeling was wrong and you are just too tired... I dont even dare to think if you really give up about me... If you did... I guess I wont care others things anymore... Ya... I think I will...

WTH is Happening?

WTF... I just found out... The key chain that I cherish the most... have lost... I cant find it...
What have I done?? Huh??? I clearly remember that I did bring it home... and I didnt put it
anywhere... Why is it missing now??? WHY WHY?!!! TELL ME WHY!!!!!!!

I hate my life... Why is it all the shit suddenly came to me? Huh? I cant stand it anymore... I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!! I want my card back... I want my key back... I want my key chain back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Where did they go???!!!! I almost wipe the whole building just to find these things... But end up... I found NOTHING!!!! NOTHING MAN!!!!! WHERE DID THEY GO???!!!! DID SOMEONE TOOK IT???? GHOST??? or WHO??????!!!!!

I am totally abnormal now... You cant imagine how mad I am now... I mad at myself... Why so fucking suck... Even a small little thing... I still cant keep it nicely... I totally failed!!! FAILED!!!!!!
Can someone please slap me till I wake????? I FEEL SO BAD NOW!!!!! EVERYWHERE IS PAIN NOW!!!!!!!!! I am sad... but more is like I am mad... I wanted to cry... but the tears never want to come out.... Hahahahahahahahahaha.....

Maybe the god is having fun on me... Its taking everything from me but not my life YET.... Fine... If its what you want... Have fun with it... I hate YOU!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!!!!

Many Things Had Happened

11:33pm , I am not sleeping yet... Normally I will be on the bed at around 8pm every night... Sigh... Many things in my mind... Suddenly think back about last time stuffs... I know the tears are coming out...

Girls... What you guys want me to do? Joseph.. Thanks for understanding me... I dunno and I dont feel like explaining all these... You guys should know well that I am not really good in words... and actually I am SO simple... I will treat u well if u treat me well too... So.. You guys know now? How am I? I dunno how to describe my feeling now... Angry? No.. Not really... Sad? No.. Not really.. Tired? Maybe...

Please... Dont ask me... What had happen? I dont fucking know what had happen as well... The drama begin on one upon a time... O.. I forgot... Its like... Nothing happen actually... Then... ask again... I answer.. Nothing happen really... Then... I get "bad face"(Maybe I too sensitive)... So...
Emo start... Today... return her a bad face too (I am so childish)... and Then... DRAMATIC!!!!
"What happen to u and her?" "Why u angry her?" Bla bla bla bla... COME ON! How the hell I know?? Can anyone get what I mean?? Grrrr... WHATEVER!

Monkey... to be honestly... I really apprectieace a friend like u... So far... You are the only "friend" of my that chat with me thru phone for like almost 1 hour... Joseph is the second one... Monkey got 44 minute and Joseph is 35minute... =.= What am I trying to show? =.= I am happy to know a friend like you... And I really know you are good... From the heart... But monkey... Its hard for me to change my mind/my mood in a very short time... You know I need time... I know you really do want us to be good to each other...

Today her mood is so so only... Sigh~ I dunno how to make her feel better... I can see her angry face d during work... I really dont want to lose a friend like you... T.T Monkey u cannot angry me de wo... NEVER EVER ya!!!!!!

What I can say/do now is... Gimme some time... But since I already sms her say I am ok d... So I am ok d... Gimme some time... Dont ever force me... Thanks...

Emotional

Recently I am busy about my job... I feel very happy to work there... Thanks a lot Dreamer... You brought me here... I got to know a lot of new friends... and I finally know how's that feel when you take group picture... Days by days... Almost a month now... and I am still loving it...

Last night... Something went wrong... Maybe because of my jealousy... I dress up nice and make up then take some picture... Display it on my msn.. and I go and ask Dreamer... "I pretty or not?" LOL!!!!! Well... I am not always like that... Beside I ask my bf this question everyday... I never ask others... Dunno whats wrong with me yesterday... Keep telling myself... "I am pretty" "I am leng lui also"... Well... Dont laugh... Its all over now... I wont repeat it again... NEVER!

Kinda angry... When I accidently paste out someone's email and then got shoot... "WTF you like him?!" t(-.-t) Please! Dont always think I so easy like ppl... Although I am... But PLEASE!!!! Not everyone also worth I like de.... Fine... I dont want to talk about this... For now what I am very sure is... I dunno how to talk with you anymore... "Whatever" le... You like to say... you say... Whatever u like to think... Go ahead...

I am kinda emo now... Feel sick of everything... Well... Leave me alone.. I guess I will be fine...

My First Day

Yay!! Finally 8 Sep has come.... Currently in working mode... But since I havent get any training yet... So all I can do now is just sit here and look around/disturb around... :( Dunno what I can do for now anyway... T.T They changed the rules as well... Sigh~

Well... This morning my hunny woke up late... I am the one who found out the time was 5:45am.... LoL! Rushing for everything then... Asked him if he want to drive there or still wait for the KTM but will be late for sure if go by KTM... He said nvm... So... We go by KTM lo.......
v(^.^)v Get our's butt on the seats... Heading to Mid Valley lu...

Finally know what my hun said about the "crowded" case of the KTM.... From our station... Its still empty.... After around 5 stations... You cant see the opposite people anymore... After 7 stations MORE SCARY... The train almost cant close the gate already.... WA SAI.... Its even worst than "SATIN".... I almost cant breath... Wow... KTM=new experience...

Around 7:30am we reached there... Step into my "FIRST" company.... Actually my working time start at 8:30am... So I stay with my hun a bit till the time's up... 8:10am , my hun throw me out of the office and ask me go look for the "bla bla bla"... >< Fine!!!! So I alone standing outside the office and wait till the "bla bla bla" come... T.T Its so damn hot there! 8:30am... Finally someone came and opened the door for me... Sigh~~ I almost can be "eat" liao...

I can describe my first day with one word now.... "WAIT!" everything is just to "wait"... :(
Ok.. I dunno what else to write here... Good bye... *muackkk*

Waiting

Finally I had passed the interview... That was really quick... I interview at 2:30 and I got my reply at 3:30... Hehe... I thought I will be nervous for it but end up I dont feel any nervous on the conversation... Just a bit shock cause the whole interview was in english... LoL.. You can imaging how it goes with my "broken english" and "stuck words"... "Errr..." "Errmmm"

I told my hun about what we talk in it... and My bb said that I did a great job... At least I did answer those questions... Was asking me about what you will explain about the connection problem? Well... Its a really good question.. Dont have a correct answer actually... Just have to try ur best and explain till the customer feel better... I did stuck for a moment but at the end I still get to answer him a bit... Hopefully I am not as bad as I think :(

Sometime, Something, you better not to know so you wont feel bad/anything about knowing it... This is very true... A new friend told me that... Cause I am asking him on how much he get for salary... LoL and now I realise its kinda personal... I knew some new friend recently... and learn something from some of them... Btw... That "something" that I shouldnt know is... T.T my comment from the guy who interview me was just "Ok La"... T.T not "Not Bad"... Sigh~ a bit disappointed... But I am ok right now..

Bubu,know him thru the new game that I am playing now... First sight about him was not very good(I mean in game)... cause he is full with those %$#@# words(not full with but quite often)...Then slowly I get to know him better... He was a nice person... nice friend to me... But just one thing that I dont really like is... After reading my blogs... He start to comment me on my life... >< honestly I just dont really like people that is trying to open up my heart and see me thru... Its like being naked in front of people... T.T sorry bubu i really dont mean to be bad to u... I know you really want to help me... Sigh~ and now bubu just left his acc for me and never say anything T.T... Dont wry bubu.. I wont touch a thing... Waiting for u to come back...

Mr C, a very "cute" lil bro... I knew he thru my hun... I dunno how to describe him... A very "funny" person... Sometime he will be very serious and sometime he will be very "NOT" serious... LoL! Thats how I describe him... Oh ya.. Currently he is looking for a girl friend... Anyone interest? We can make some appointment here... ROFL! I wonder if he know about this will kill me or not T.T... btw... His words sometime really wake me up... "Sometime you really dont have to tell them "ALL" and dont be so "Serious" about it"... Just like today... He asked me "Why so serious?"... He is right... Why so serious? Its just a game... Oh ya... with lots of botters' game... XD

Mr G, a new friend that I knew in game but still thru my hun... He was the one who told me about dont ask dont know and wont feel... Two thumb up for him... Not very close with him but can feel that he is a not bad person... hehe... Nice to meet ya btw although u wont read this...

and MY VERY FIRST FAN---- Dreamer! Yo man! Finally meet you!!! How many years we been knowing each other? XD and Thanks Thanks Thanks!!! For introduce me and my hun for the job... You are our life saver!!! *muackkk* :p Oh ya... We still owe u half burger... When you free to go eat with us ah? Hahaha... Call me wo... Oh ya... Where is my Cup ah?

Wow... Today I just write so much... and one more thing... BB I love you!!! Sorry for the last few week... I am ok now... Get rid of the stupid things already.... :p Your still my LOVEST darling... *muackkkk*

What Should I Do?

Everyday seem has become days living in the hell for me... I do nothing beside sleep , eat , poo poo , bath , and "game"... I am not addicted to it actually... Just feel like I got nothing better to do... Still waiting for the job's reply... But I keep thinking If I could handle the job...

I failed many times and made people feel disappointed about me... Sigh~ I wonder who know that I really dont mean it... They all say that I have "NO" responsibility and take working as "game" (play play only)... Sigh~ I really dont! I paid all my heart into it... I worked hard... I dont even dare to "relax"... I just cant stand the communication... People are hard to guess... Who really treat u with heart and who dont... I am really weak on it... I did try to hold it hard inside..
Until the day I went collapse and cry out loud... I scared my mom and others... I feel like myself is dying during that period...

I feel scare now... I have a serious problem on how to "let go" all the stuff... I take things too serious on mind... I dunno If I can handle this job this time... Should I try? Will I hurt someone again? T.T I really dont want to be a bad one again... I feel tired for my life... Really really tired...

Nice "Block"

Thanks for blocking... Hahaha... Really thanks...
So now I can tell myself... Stop thinking about everything now...
No more... Really no more... Thanks for blocking still...

Days cant reverse I always know... Things already happen mean
already happen... Nothing can change it... Still... Thanks a lot...
Would be a good memory for me...

Thanks for blocking... I can end up everything now...
*Story close*

Headache, I am So Headache

"Wasted" 11 days on a game that made me so crazy about it...
Get know with some people inside... Well... My blog is for me to write
whatever I want... Just want to say... Dont try to change me and
tell me what to do cause I really hate it... Look inside my heart? Never!

Recently I am so freaking emo and headache about everything...
I feel sick on him... very very... Starting to think If I should back to be alone...
Everyone tell me to work... Guys... You really think that I dont want to work?
Hahahaha... I got nothing to say... I dont have to explain to everyone.. Really...
At least I know what I doing and what I want...

One thing that I am pretty sure now is... I really need money! I am totally broke!
Its sad when you see your thing already spoilt but you dont have the money
to get a new one... and He dont have as well... Hahahaha... What a life?
Even I wanna start work... He dont seem like care about helping me apply for the job...
A letter that I asked him to type long time ago... Until now... He still havent done it for me...
Well well well... You dont want to feed me.. but also you dont help me to get a job...
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU WANT???????!!!!!!!!!

Well... Maybe you will think... "WHY DONT YOU GO APPLY FOR URSELF?" I will... I will
ask my friend now... I will learn how to type it by myself... I DONT FUCKING WANT TO DEPEND ON HIM ANYMORE!! I will die if I just wait for him to feed me ya... Ok Thank you...
and Bye...

Mr "Kanasai"

Mother~ Today really DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN angry...
Why? Thanks to that piece of kanasai la.... "Why u always scold your bf one"
I got? Ya I did... So I am bad one.. He so pity always kena scold...
Kanasai! See what you did! No money pay for the car also didnt tell
people... Now after people "tor" it only u start blaming bullshit...
"How I know? You think I want??" HOW YOU KNOW???!!!
YOU THINK YOU WANT?????!!!! *BEEP*(Too rough cant be show)

Mr Kanasai... "Before" you decide to "dont pay" for it that time... U NEVER
THINK DE MEH??????? OFF COURSE PEOPLE WILL "TOR" LA!!!
Ok ok calm down calm down... Since I already "d" "i" "u" him for whole day
already... Congrat to him... Now have to pay all +++++ extra charge which is
RM450~~~~ RM450?!!!!!!! Mother *BEEP** Half month of my salary....
Half month... You know how hard to pass thru that half month only can get
RM450? Hahahah sure u dunno... Half month for me = Half dead...

Mr Kanasai... You know what... You "always" like that... You "NOT FIRST TIME"
lo.... ALL NEVER PLAN NICELY de... Like wait for the sky drop only u decide...
Wedding also... But dont worry... I think it clearly now... I DONT WANT TO
MARRY WITH YOU ALREADY... YES! I DONT WANT MARRY ALREADY!!!
Dude... You really think all the thing can "hold on" as long as me???
6 yearsss.... You "HOLD ON" me for 6 years already!!!!! How many more years
u want to "hold on"? No Thanks... I wont le... Wont be as stupid as last time le...

"Badly in need of support"?? You think only you?? Hahahaha.. Ya I always know...
When I am scolding you... You become "very" pity and I am "very" bad....
Whatever! OK? I really dont have to make myself become so cheap just because of you
---mr kanasai...

Sometime you think you grow up... You dont need support from ur family...
You dont want to borrow money... Nevermind I understand a bit.... BUT YOU KNOW WHAT??
SOMETIME YOU HAVE NO CHOICE!! YOU NEED THEIR HELP STILL!!!!!
See.. This is a very good example... You no money... no pay for the car... People "tor" it away...
O~~~ end up need them to pay also... ++ extra RM450... Mr kanasai... Thanks for ur ermmmmm how to describe??? Whatever~ As in me... Wedding = X cause of ? No money...
Ask me to wait??? 10 years later??? Hahahahahahahahahaha.... OH YA... People suggest me
the fastest way is to... "PREGNANT" ... FUCK OFF LA!! Pregnant? I need to be in that only can
marry out?? Ridiculious! If you ask me a day ago... I will stilll thinking about marry him...
Wait a while never mind... But now... No thanks le... I really doubt it... This man can give me happiness?? A man that without any planning for everything...

Mr kanasai... You disappointed me too many time... I wont break up with you de..
Dont worry...but I also wont marry with you de... Its useless le... Everything is over already...
You knew it long time ago dont you? Just u dont want to face it...

Ignore? Busy? Whatever

Recently I wrote many stuffs... About myself or others...

www.wretch.cc/blog/iReobe (my mandarin blog)
and
www.wretch.cc/blog/xuanne (english version)
and
yinsum1610.spaces.live.com (my spaces in Mandarin)

Well... Almost everynight sleep late for them... But sometime
when I staring on my msn list... Suprised that I cant find
those who i used to "chat" with.. Or just dont reply me...

Fine... Its still up to u guys... Trying to tell myself that...
"Maybe they are busy?" Whatever now... You know
that I shoudnt care... But I will mark it down...

Ok... I really dunno what to write with english...
Guess I will be stopping here...

Feel free to visit my mandarin blogs... Thx...

I Hate It When Its Crowded!

Sunday , the day that I hate the most..Sunday always made me feel bad...

Today went to "Mid Valley" with my hon...
Put some simple make-up on(cause I really look like "dead" person now)...
Just trying to be a friend of "pretty"... but seem like there is still long way to go...

Super crowded... We cant find a place which is "less" people for our "brunch"...
Mood started become bad... Well... I really hate to see a lots of people...
I started blaming him why bring me here... and my stupid shoe hurt my feet which
made me feel very very pain... GRRRRRRR.... So...
Feet Pain + Hungry + Crowded = Mood very suck...
End up we went back to somewhere near our parking for our brunch...

Curry chicken Rice... our brunch... Not very very nice but kinda expensive...
and... gotta wait very very long... Ok... Mood start feeling better now...
Met with "Dreamer"... First time oh... We used to know each other for such a
long time... and He used to listen to my songs(I compose, I sing de)... Hahaha...
But seem like... My hon more close with him...

Anyway... I really really want to thanks him... Appreciate his help...

Went to "pasar malam" just now... Bought many foods... Feel kinda happy...
But still... Crowded... Sigh~

How Should I Face You?

How long didnt we talk? Since last year my birthday? Hahahaha... Although everything is pass...
but seem like... Its kinda hard for us to start talking back... Maybe you and me = same type...
I dont start a "Hi" n so dont you... Still angry huh? Hahaha... I am the one who start it first....
Well... I never say I didnt... But... :p "whatever"

Tried to ask you join us swimming for few times... Rejected... Well... Never mind its still up to you...
To be honest... Used to swim with you and some others... Now when everytime I want to go swimming... I sure think of you guys first... 2 people swim just too bored... Sigh~

Today saw you also... I dunno that if I should "look" at you or just pretend to look at some other place... Damn!! I show my bad face again... Sorry lo... I just dunno what kind of "face" that I should use to "face" u... Used to play together but now... Aihz... Almost 1 year we didnt talk? Since my last birthday... Ya la Ya la.. I so mean la... But you also ma... -.- Where got boy can angry so long also? :( Dunno why I so so so so so "UNCONTROLABLE".. Why must run when I see you?? -.- So automatic liao... Honestly... I still dunno how to start a "Hi" with you... GRRR...
Why dont you start a "Hi" with me first leh? =.= @#$@$%!(didnt mean to scold bad)

Until now I still cannot find out... What is that feeling? Do I like you? love you? angry you? or just feel "good" about u? But I am sure is... My heart beat "didnt" increase when I see you... But then... I still... Like to see you... What do that mean? GRRRR!!! Why am I always do stupid things? Sigh~ Dont worry... I guess I will be ok very soon... Maybe its good for us for staying like this... At least I can make sure I wont fell for you... Yea... Maybe...

Today hardly can skate... All of them are practising for the coming skate asia... Just did few jumps n back spins... Sorry... wk.. I didnt mean to block ur student... :( sorry...

Me ,The Bus and The LRT

Today I woke up at around 10am... Found out honey already went out to work..
Swt... I dont realise when he wake(sleeping like a piggie).. Since I got nothing to do...
So I force myself to sleep back... XD Nice... I rewake at around 1 something... :( No food!!
Called mum.. -.- Nothing good to eat.. Better cook it myself.. Tom Yam!!! Yummy ^^

Ate it.. Ok.. Look at the pc... No mood for it... Decide to go "ICE SKATING".. But how??
Sigh~ "BUS LO".. Call mum again.. "Mum..fetch me to the LRT pls" Ok... Done packing
everything , changed clothes.. Clock show "3pm" before I walk out from the door... Woot..
So long never take LRT/Bus.. Hope there is no any changes..

"1 ticket to Plaza Rakyat pls".. ermm.. Forgot how much it cost...Opps.. My skates almost
stuck me when crossing the entries(dunno what it call) .. Oh ya.. Mum told me to "cover up"
my "ugly" skates with the black bag... Hehehe.. So no one looking at me for it so far...

On train/Lrt... Alone sitting there and watching outside view... Hate it when you found out
someone is keeping their eyes on u... The opposite man do.. =.= "See what See.. Want a Fight?"
Ok nvm.. Just wait for my Plaza Rakyat... Guess what? >< I wanna PEEEE!!!! Cannot , no
toilet around... T.T "tahan" Finally... It reached Plaza Rakyat..

Walk walk walk... Just follow my old memory... "Yeeeee..." Met a girl that I knew when I
worked in that music centre... Pull her bag... "Hi".. Hahaha... She is kinda blur... Told her I
didnt work there anymore...Forgot to ask for her contact.. >< Since we both rushing for
our things... And ya... I found my bus... "Number 13"

Dont worry if you dunno which bus going "sunway"... Cause they will automatic "scream" it
out... " Sunway Pyramid/Sunway Lagoon" "Sunway Pyramid/Sunway Lagoon"... Ok...
found a nice seat for myself... With AIRCON!!!! Cool.. I got them both... :( But what I dont really
happy with... Both next seat "neighbour" = Man... GRRRRRRR... Nvm Nvm... Just think about
my sunway pyramid n ice skating...

Forgot how long the bus take... I reached sunway pyramid n the ice rink at around 5pm... LOL!!!
So... I START MY LOVELY SKATING Then~~~~~

Blogs Geek

LoL... I just realise so far I owns 3 Blogs... XD Happy ^^
Msn space , wretch n this... Msn space used to blog with
mandarin + english... Wretch is full of mandarin... and This
is plain english... ^^

Jobless now... Everyday so free... Just "eat , sleep , toilet
n play" only... :( Im blogging most of the time.. Thinking
what to write... Kinda jealous about others' blog... They did
it so nice n amazing.. Sigh~ Mine just plain plain... Suddenly
the writing mood came to me... Yesterday I wrote 3 page
of some different story or they called it "Free Writing"...

About "Snowflake Fell In Love With Sunshine"...
"Figure Skating - White Costume" n "My Lovely -White"
... All in mandarin... I am better with mandarin... Can just
write out what I think...

For today... I dunno what to do... Thinking about going skate..
But lazy :( Have to take bus n then bla bla bla... Sigh~
But staying at home is really boring... Blog? :( I am now...
But today blogging mood is a bit weak... Dunno what to write...
I wish something pretty will come out from my mind...

Recently I love listening to others' love story... Many type of
story... I m watching how they cross thru their problem...
Love is such an amazing thing n a miracle... It hurt but still...
People will just go for it... (Ok Bullshit is out~)

Stop for now... ^^ Bye...

What I been Up To?

Since I quit the "clerk" job... I am kinda free these days...
But too bad... My bb just found his new job and fighting
with it now... Well... The "clerk" job was my very first
step into a job... From the moment I left my contact
and sitting there to wait for them to interview me...
and everything go so smooth(out of my thought)...
They take me as an admin... Although I was interview as
a sales... Well... They said I need to learn about the admin
stuffs before I learn about the sales stuff...

I am so into this job... Try my best to do all the
paperworks... Just a bit dont used to it... Since I hate
paperworks so much... Feel abit dizzy on the first 3days..
Haha... But end up I quit it... Why?
My heart cant stand it... I feel unfair... I hate that girl
who used to work with me... Politic? Ya...
She used to treat you good... but U really dunno what is
inside her... Selfish? ya.. She "sell" fish.. (just kidding)...
She can do everything but you cant... Hahaha... Well...
Just forget about it... Its all pass now... As long as I am happy
now... Then its enough... Just hate about they giving me some
names of "Playful girl , Emo girl , No Responsible" while I quit...
Whatever!

Recently Me n my bb are planning about our wedding...
Looking for the rings ^^... Yep I am sooner become an
"auntie" LOLLLL... Hope thing go smoothly as well...
Saving for the dinner budget... :p Need to get myself in
another new job as well...

OH YA!!! Since I so free nowadays.. I will be skating until the
coming "SKATE ASIA"... COOL!!!! Cant wait to see them skate...
Hehehe...

Oh.. Its 2008 and Sooner 2009

Haha.. Day by day... It already go so far... I still didnt realise it...
Oh ya.. If u ask me how I am so far.. I will tell u... Fine or maybe
not very fine... LoL bullshit? XD I am still me... A girl with lots of
nonsense... Well.. This is the way I can stay happy...

Not very happy actually... Many things happened... I am force to stop
my piano n ice skating classes... Which I love the most... Well...
I cant do anything about them... I dont have any extra money to
"waste" on them anymore... Why "waste"?

Since I know I can never pass grade 8 or get more than freestyle
6... Why not huh? Haha... Trust me on this... Dont try to "dream"
it when you already know its "done"... But still... Its kinda waste..
Since I already spent the past years for them...

Future... a serious question... What would u like to do on ur future?
"????" my answer... Maybe if u asked me a couple years ago.. I definately
will answer u.. "Ice Skating Coach!" or "Piano Teacher"... but now...
I dont think the same...

Ice skating coach.... A job that can make u say out loud between you friend..
and enjoy about the proud it gave... Hahaha... But its really "not easy"...
Can you make sure the students that u taught... Can skate as nice as
the professional skater? and you sure what u teach them is the correct one?
How if they cant win in their competition? See... Lots of problems...
To be honest.. For now.. I have no confidence at all on coaching anyone to become
a pro skater... So... I failed to be a coach...

Piano teacher?? Well... I love teaching piano as well... you feel great when you
turn someone from dont even know how to play "Twinkle Twinkle Star" become
can play some simple pop songs... Well.. but I still dont qualified to be a piano teacher..
I still need 2 more grades... But I am tired about taking the exam now... and I just found
out... I might be the worst piano player in my school... Although I passed my grade 6..
So how? I cant even play a complete Beethoven's song... Haha.. Sometime It really
dont count on what grade you have... It count on how much u got inside u.. If I can afford..
I wish to start from 0 again.. Learn as much as I can... Exspecially the CHORDSSS... Omg!
I love playing chords now... They are awsome!!!!