System Down

2009 17 Jan, my last off day.. As I wish, I archieved my dream.. and
went to a wonderful land(what I thought it was).. I started everything
from 0.. I forced myself to catch up cause I dont want to feel that I
am useless for others.. Beside some product knowledge(well not some
actually) that I still cant catch up.. The rest.. I already tried my best..

I cant explain.. Everything actually goes so smoothly at the begining..
I got to know new friends.. and I am working with my good friend..
Until then.. my system down.. I started to blame started to hate..
Until now.. I deleted my good friend and I made myself became a bad
character once again.. But well.. Quote from someone " Dont bother about
how others look upon you, just think about how you look upon urself "
Thanks bro.. and sorry to give you trouble..

Dream is still a dream.. Which only perfect to be a "dream".. Archieve it..
and you will see the reality.. Which is not that perfect anymore.. So..
I better just keep it in my heart as a "dream".. To be honestly.. I do know that
the opportunity is better in the current one.. But.. the most important thing
is to enjoy your work.. If you are not happy.. You can hardly done the work
nicely..

Can I complain here? For my personal feeling on that person?
She.. used to be a cute little sister.. and I do like the cute girl like her..
But dunno why.. There is one day.. she show her emotion on me.. Come on..
I know maybe you are not feeling well.. But can you please be informed that
I am NOT born for you to show your emotion with ok? and please...
Why would you everytime think that I "SURE" know to answer the questions?
and your face DID show that I SHOULD know how to answer.. Thats really funny..
Well.. I admit.. Its about girl's jealousy.. Most of them is sitting at your side to teach
you.. Hahaha.. How about me?? I AM LEARNING ALL THE WAY BY MYSELF!!!
I ASK!! I LOOK AT THEM!!! I SEARCH FOR THE ANSWERS!!!! Never mind..
nightmare would be ended one day..

You are not trusted??? I doubt about your working ability???? Fine.. If you say so..
I am.. I AM!!! Ok?? Satisfy huh? and please.. I DONT NEED to be fake ok..
If I dont like you.. I will never show that I like you.. =.=

So.. GTFO~ Thank you.