My Tears

Right now I am working.. Was quite free... But a while
later.. I found a girl which had forgotten by her team.. =.=
Suprice to see that my IDs still working beside my forum's..
I knew I may doing the wrong thing... I leave my current
position and go help her... Well.. I feel like i need to do so..
I am happy to touch it back.. Which I used to call it as
a hell dream.. and I woke up from it.. Back to my "heaven".
Well.. heaven or not.. depends...

In these few days.. I gained some and lost some.. I gained
lessons.. I lost my tears... I been collapse and cried.. I feel
sad and happy.. My emotions changing every minute..
I lost the most cherrish friend.. I let myself fell into the
lonely trap.. I emo them.. stopped talking with them...
I thought I will feel better... I am or not.. Only myself know..
I dont want to explain anything... Hardly people can read me..
But I am tired on explaining.. Does it even give help? No

I am happy with my family now.. No matter from my bf
side or my home side.. Sorry guys.. I used to complain a lot
about all.. I know my words always hurt people.. I just dunno
why I always let the small little sad thing cover up all the big
huge happy things.. Auntie.. I know you are not a bad person..
A good mother you could said.. As a mother in law.. I can consider
you as a good one.. Sorry for being lazy in the house.. Haha..

Recently I gained the happiness feeling from the new lifes...
Hamster babies.. I will never feel bored watching them everyday..
I wish to record down everything I see.. And I am happy
with the iguanna... =) Grow up faster babies...